xoxo, GossipGirl

Great fashion great storyline great characters.

What's there not to love in GG? ♥

Episode 12 please come out soooon!

Aye, 24th Jan please come soon.

xoxo,W

P.S: I hope they'll release it faster! 24th Jan is too long :(

I'm just a little too random

I love fooling around with my laptop's camera (:

Teehee

And btw, Xander is back in Seoul! Thankgod (:

xoxo,W

Midnight thoughts

It's 2.30am now and i can't sleep. Idk if i'm doing the right thing by waiting but i am. A million thoughts run through my mind but they're all filled with 'maybes' and 'what ifs'. There was never really a definite answer whenever its about you.

I never really found my way out of this mess. I just kept evading it instead of dealing with it and whenever i hit a rock, i just stopped and moved back.

It's gonna be another year. Another whole year without you yet i'm nowhere near prepared. Can't keep being like this, can't. It's driving me nuts.

I've pulled through this year (even though i barely made it but i did) and i sure as hell need to pull through the many more years. Painful? Yes but i don't really have a choice do i?

Gotta keep going. Keep believing.

xoxo,W
I'm sorry but idk why i'm so depressed now -.-

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Merry-town-Xmas ♥

Merry Christmas once again ^^v

Spent the day in town with the family, and Ger came to meet us for awhile ♥

The plan was to see if we could bump into Xander but didn't cuz he was too good at playing hide-and-seek! A few people saw him though (: Probably the best xmas gift for them this year hahah.

But still, i had fun! (:

Love Ger and my sis so much ♥

There's a picture of the 3 of us but it's in my camera and i'm too lazy to upload it right now. So, another day kay (:

I'm totally loving my nails btw!

China Glaze's, Swing Baby ♥

Sorry my fingers damn short and fat but yah.. :'(

xoxo,W

Merry Christmas ♥

Merry Xmas y'all! Have a good one (:

This year i celebrated in advance so i guess tmrw's just gonna be shopping with my little princess and hopefully my parents ♥

Cuz what's Xmas without presents right? Teehee ^^v

This year i didn't really make a wish (except for the one at MBS cuz we had to throw a coin into the wishing bowl) so i'm not expecting anything so i hope i'll be happier from here on (:

So far, i've spent my Xmas eve sleeping, getting slight food poisoning and missing out on Mubank, so now I'm gonna spend the remaining of xmas eve watching Greys, GG, HIMYM and VD (:

Gotta make myself happy on Xmas Eve!

Merry Xmas once again! ♥

xoxo,W

P.S: Can't believe Xander was in town todayyyyy! *inserts a million sad faces that i cancelled my outing plan today*

The Eve of Xmas Eve (:

Harrow y'all!

Spent a really awesome night with the SWSG girls last night @ Marina Mandarin (:

It's amazing how we click so well despite knowing each other for like only 3 to 4 months! So, 18 of us shared a room and had our own mini Xmas celebration ♥

Secret Santa was a blastttt! And i really had no idea that my sis was my secret santa HARHAR! Until she gave a speech and went like "The person i'm giving this gift to is really damn troublesome! (lesley, jamie and all were already laughing cuz they know it's me but i had no idea!) And she is very fickleminded because she has 3 husbands." HAHAHHA and then it hit me! I immediately knew it was me when she said 3 husbands :/

And so my little princess bought me the bottle of China Glaze that i've been eyeing on it at the Flea the other day. That cunningham even told me "oh, i went to buy necklace for Genny cuz i'm her secret santa". And i really thought it was Genny until yesterday -.-

Plus i think i'm really either blind or stupid or ignorant. Cuz her box accidentally opened and i saw the ChinaGlaze but thought nothing about it and closed the box back for her -.- Aye, i must be ageing. Right? Either that or my eyesight is dying.

Anywayzzzz, had D-best time of my life yesterday with them :') So touched and so glad to have met them! Especially Lesley, Jamie, Pris and Jowell ♥

Came home today and died on the sofa for 5 hours.

Can't wait to see the pictures! Especially since it's taken with Lesley's DSLR teehee! Andddd we took lots of Polaroids! Seriously, we lined them up and it was really A LOT.

We kept taking pictures as if the films are free hahahaha!

I loved yesterday. I wish everyday was like yesterday ♥

Aye! okay time to paint my nails and watch VampD (:

xoxo,W

one of the best things this year, was getting to know the swsg girls.

At long last

HOLIDAYS! (:

Finally, i can catch up on all my shows!

And and anddddd, on the 22nd it's gonna be a blast!

Met my PPGs yesterday and got crazy, as usual.

Went to Nex, and the place was really crowded. I think it's like a normal shopping mall, except it's still really new and i didn't get to shop around cuz we just went there to eat, haha.

And btw, we saw this really cute guy working at MadJack and Jamie was literally spazzing outside the shop! Eh he's really cute, no kidding.

Meeting the girls again later to shop for gifts! Secret santa is gonna be awesome (:

C: "if two people are meant to be together, eventually they'll find their way back"

xoxo,W

Beezee bee

2 down, 2 more to go!

Today's EBA was fine. Not good, but fine (: At least i can do most of the questions and i just hope i pass :/

Anyway it's been a crazy week.

I'm so tired... i just wanna sleep the whole day and just laze around.

Come on, holidays please hurry!

I've got so much plans for the holidays!

Eggggcited just thinking about it (:

Especially on the 22nd! ♥♥♥♥♥♥

Aye okay, back to FMGT.

and GG (:

Tmrw it's hardcore mugging for the last paper! (:

xoxo,W

it's make it or break it

Back at one.

I think i screwed up today's CMA paper, but i'm not surprised at all.
I kinda expected it, since i wasn't really prepared and i seriously hate Accounting modules.
But it sucks, cuz last sem i was so in the game.
And now i'm just back to the slacker i was a year ago.

When school reopens after the holidays, it'll be a new year.. so i guess i've got to start the year with the right foot now. Got to!

Come to think of it, time flies, doesn't it? It's already the end of the year and we're like 1 week away from Xmas and 2 weeks away from the New Year. One whole year has passed but it feels like it was just yesterday that i started writing 2010 instead of 2009. And now i've got to get used to 2011.
I hope 2011 will be better than 2010.

This year's been good, in a sense that i met lots of new people whom i'm very thankful for (my girls especially) and i've learned a lot.
Although things haven't changed much, and i'm still where i was... i've survived another year and i will keep going.
Next year better be good.

xoxo,W
i'm back in the GG world.
can't get enough of blair and serena.

Irrelevance

I guess it's all irrelevant now.

Studying with Lesley tmrw and really hope that i cover more topics this time round. I'm freaking out for my papers but i'm really not in the mood to mug. Sigh, whatever happened to the me who was mugging for last sem? I wanna get the same GPA i got for last sem.

I guess the crazy mugger in me just died.

Please get me back on track. Someone, anyone.

xoxo,W

Even up till now

"I told you i loved you and meant it"


Came across this somewhere and thought that it related really well.

Spent some time with Ting, caught Rapunzel (and am still very amazed that Disney still works it magic on me and manages to make me cry) and we had our usual long talk. I love how we catch up with each other (: Random topics just keeps coming out.

And then it dawned on me that i never really understood why it happened. Idk, it's just odd. I mean yeah it was a long time ago, but why is it that i couldn't let it go? Was there something that was holding me back? Was there?

Perhaps i was never in the right state of mind. Never really thought about it ever since. And now that i look back again, i realized i missed out on a lot. A lot of 'should have's and 'shouldn't have's.

I messed up, i know.

But i thought that if time went by, i would eventually get at least some explanation. Short one, brief one, whichever. All i needed was just something from you. A letter, a text, just something.

But nope. I should have known better.

xoxo,W

And i realized, i never really got a proper explanation.
Even after all these while.

Perhaps that's why i kept holding on.

But i'm fine now. I guess i am.
Just that WGM brings back the memories. Ahh well, thoughts aside, i gotta sleep.

xoxo,W

Life's simplest things

Spent a great day with my 2 lovely girls today (:
Pris made both of us laugh so hard, i couldn't swallow my rice properly! That girl has a weird sense of humour that somehow... makes you wanna laugh along with her.
Unglam max.

So i was clearing up my desk yesterday and i seriously threw out a whole lot of stuffs cuz my room was becoming really messy (and partly becuz of another incident which i'll tell you later).
And so... i finally cleared out some stuffs which i shouldn't keep. Stuffs that brought a lot of heartache whenever i looked at it.
I finally did it.
It really wasn't easy but at that point all i could think of was that it was impossible to go back to how things were so i might as well clear it out cuz it was a constant reminder of the past. And i really can't handle the thoughts and the pain anymore.
I just wanna heal. Mend the broken pieces and start again.

So yes, i cleared it. All of it.
My girls were proud of me but why is it that i still feel that tinge of regret?
That guilty feeling..

I guess i'll never really be able to understand my feelings.
Cuz i'm a mess like that.

Right, gonna door-knock tmrw before i head to work extra extra early to chill with the girls! (:
Can't wait to work with Bevv and Jamie tmrw ♥
Work takes my mind off a lot of things.
I like it that way ♥

xoxo,W

Eyes that sparkles

PLEASE DON'T RIP THE PICTURES THANKS (:
Cr. if you wanna rip it. Thanks a billion.

Here's only a few pictures, the rest are up on my FB (:

Wonderful 7 boys ♥

Ukiss fanmeet was awesome because we were standing in the first row and right in the middle!
Best view (:

And the part where the boys actually jumped off the stage was the best of all!
I was that close to touching soohyun but the securities came -.-
But they were DAMN CLOSE omg.

Eli and his cheeky smile ♥
Stalked them and our maxi cab just right beside theirs.
Eli did a heartshape with his fingers to my sis and she nearly died in the cab

Then they were at Iluma but we reached before them and surprisingly they were walking towards us to go up the escalator!
And so we talked to them since we were the only ones there hehe! ^^

Xander : Heyy! We're going for lunch! Wanna join us? Hahahha

Pris lost her mind when she saw Kevin.

Pris : Kevin! You guys are amazing!
Kevin : Hehe Thankyou! ^^


Then we followed them back to their hotel! And guess what!
They were carrying boxes filled with gifts hahaha.

Xander and Soohyun waving ♥
KISEOPPPPP ♥
It's a little dark cuz my lighting was still adjusting but i snapped cuz they were walking too fast -.-
It's Eli, and Kiseop's behind him.

This is their rooms! (the 2nd floor)
We parked our cabs right outside hahaha.
Then it was the concert at Bedok Reservoir.
After the concert we left for the airport (:
And managed to see them leave!
I'm sorry but my phone doesn't take very clear pictures apparently -.- especially when you're on the escalator with about 20+ people behind you pushing and trying to take pictures too.

This is better, standing on flat ground and in the first row (: But the securities were blocking the way laaaaa! >:/
Thankgod i still managed to snap a picture of him.

Kisp looking dorkyyyy at the airport! ♥♥♥

Yeah well, Kisp's the first person that i actually gave a gift to! I know it's damn fail but i didn't give Taem anything cuz well, i didn't go for their fanmeet :/

Put in my heart and soul in making his gift. And sorry but i'm not the artistic type ah -.-

I really like this box hahaha (:

Personalized iphone4 casing for him since he got his new Iphone 4 recently (:

I swear i've never done anything so pretty for anyone before -.- Idk why i had the inspiration to do this.

The inside of the card (:
I know, please ignore the "add me on twitter" thing cuz i totally forgot that it's impossible -.-
But heyyy! He can reply tweets what!
So i'm still waiting for the day he replies mine ♥
Teehee ^^

My gift very pathetic right? T_T
I really had no time to shop for anything and that iphone case, i literally ran into the shop at 10pm to buy it -.- Thankgod they're still open.

And the boy signed my album (:
I tell you, it was mad crazy havoc at the fansign cuz only 1 member can sign our abums. And it's randomly assigned okay! I prayed so hard that i'll get Kiseop, and I DID! ♥
Yah cuz i die also make sure i count the people infront of me properly and join the right queue to make sure i get kiseop (:

I love that boy. He spoke to me and i ALMOST died.
Plus did i mention that his eyes were really sparkling! And his smile was so sweet! *dies*


Him : *sees me walking to his table* 안녕하세요~ (hello) *with the brightest smile i've seen so far*
Me : 안녕하세요! (hello)

Passed him a small piece of paper with my name on it, asking him to write my name on the album (:

He stared at my name for awhile before he wrote it down on the album! HAHAHA.

He wrote W, then he paused.. checked the paper again and wrote AI then stopped again.
And finally wrote YIN.

While he was writing my name and signing, i decided to talk to him.

Me : 기섭아~ (kiseop ah~)
Him : *stops signing and looks up at me* 예? (yeah?)
Me : 건강하세요~ ^^ (stay healthy/ take care)
Him : *stunned for awhile, then smile and nod his head continuously) 오~네네 건강하세요! (oh~ yesyes stay healthy too!)

Him : *pass me the album, waved and said* 안녕 byebye~! 감사합니다! seeyou later! ^^
Me : Thankyou! Yeahhh seeyou later! hahaha bye! (:

When i was about to walk off he stopped me. Then he stretched out his hands and said "seeyou later" again while shaking my hand.


Aiyohhh he's so cute i think i'm gonna die! His smile is really... damn awesome. Plus his eyes. Combo.

Okay anyway yah, i had no intention to do a fan account of the fanmeet but it just happened naturally hahahah!

Arghh gotta go to school tmrw :(
Better sleep early.
Goodnight y'all ♥

xoxo,W
i should really watermark my photos soon.

UKISSME

Best day of my life yesterday ♥
I'm still in hangover mode now sorry :/ I can't get Kiseop's smiling face out of my head seriously.
That boy really made my day ♥

I'll upload the pictures of the fanmeet and concert and our stalking pictures up soon!
Too tired now cuz i woke up extra early today for Suju tickets :/
Thankgod we got it!

Alright, gotta get back to finishing up my ppt slides before i get slaughtered by my group for being unproductive because ukiss came to SG. HAHAHA.

Oh and one more thing!
HAPPY HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY C.!
loveyou babe, have a good one!

P.S : Will post about yesterday's fanmeet and everything else soon! Give you all the teeny weeny details (:

xoxo,W
Kiseopppppppppp ♥

아파요 :(

Went to school today feeling like a lump of crap :/
Ditched the clique (i'm so sorryyyy) and went home for mum's home cooked lunch before i collapsed on the sofa and slept till 5pm.
I really have no idea why i felt so crappy this morning.

SGB and IY did their thing and worked a miracle (:

Anw, meeting the girls tmrw again! ^^
Gonna get high over the slightest things that Pris can come up with heheh ♥
Love love love them thissss much! *does the Yoogeun hand action*

Can't wait for Friday~
금요일 빨리와~!! 내가 기섭이 보고싶다! 빨리 빨리!
유키스 팬미트! ♥

오~ 잘자요~
Goodnight! ^^

xoxo,W
things will get better.

Keep it going

Beezee bee these days.
Sleeping at a super ungodly hour and waking up at an inhumanely early hour :/
i always complain about having not enough sleep yet i'm not doing anything about it -.- What am i doing to myself? Idek.

Work's fun, i really love it actually (:
Especially when the people there are actually familiar faces heheh ^^
There's Bevv and now there's Seewei!
And ofcourse Jamie ♥

Anywayz, 3rd batch of Stickys launched (:
Cuter than we thought! So glad that our designs are getting nicer and nicer with each new batch. I can smile just looking at it (:

I like being busy. I love it actually.
Keeps my mind off a lot of stuffs.

Anddddd, i'm finally collecting my Ukiss tix today ♥

Plus, i actually unprivated my Twitter just for the sake of tweeting to Kisp. Ever since he created his Twitter account yesterday morning. HAHAHAHA i'm so sorry but i really like him. If only Taem had a twitter. Sighhh... ㅠㅠㅠㅠ

I just realised that up till now... all those that i like, are either Lee, or Choi :/

Lee
Taemin and Kiseop

Choi
Siwon & Minho

Aye, fated!

Plus i just realised that Taem created this face! ^^;; 아이고 너무 귀엽다!

안녕~! ^^

xoxo,W

A little not too well.

Haven't been blogging much lately (ok it's just 2 days but yah..)
Really tired these days and all i wanna do is sleep :'( I need to catch up on a lot of sleep because there's too many late nights and extremely early mornings.
My dark circles are covering my cheeks and my eyebags are touching the floor pretty soon. And it's bad because despite all these i'm still sleeping at a really really unearthly hour. Shizzzz.

Anywayz, settled the Stickys today with Lesley and i think with every new batch we order, our designs are getting better and better (: Comparing the 1st, the 2nd and now this 3rd batch, i'll just say... we've upgraded (:
I like how both of us always have this "money making" mindset and the ideas that keep coming to us.
And when we decide on taking the risk, we'll be really hardcore about it.
The 2nd batch is the best example.
Who in the right mind will order 50kg of customized stickys without even knowing if people will actually buy? Yeah, us.
We just went head in and ordered.
And in 2 days... All.Sold.Out. (:
Love itttt~

I guess i'm gonna fall sick soon. My nose is dying all over again and my eyes are barely open.
Yet i have so much things to do... ugh oh god please save me :(

Ohyes! And i'm officially working (:
Can't wait to start this Saturdayyyyy with Jamie!
Small world, cuz Bevv works there too!
♥

Alright, gonna hit the sack now.

P.S : Khuntoria's house is damn pretty lah why?! When i saw it yesterday during Lecture, i was shrieking to myself and Shawn thought i was nuts.. -.-

xoxo,W

Escape

Back from a 3D2N trip to Genting and i'm already missing it..
I miss the cold weather (no perspiration for 1 whole day is like heaven)
I miss the freedom i have there (with no worries whatsoever)
And i miss the peaceful state my mind was in while i was there.
At least i know that the reason why my heart felt weird was because i took the SpaceShot and Viking, and that it wasn't because of the past.
I liked how that feel. It felt as though i had it all under control.
But now that i'm back in Singapore, it's a totally different story altogether.

Anywayz! Emoish stuffs aside.....
I had a fairly good retail therapy (:
Shopping alone isn't that bad afterall y'know!

Shall post about the trip tmrw ^^
Btw, for the first time in my life, i stayed in a $500+ per night Hotel.
And it was fucking awesome.
Pictures up whenever my cousin decides to upload them (:
hehehe.

For now, i'm gonna clear up my mail inbox, settle the horns, and get started on Episode 9 of UKCK (:

P.S: I CAN'T WAIT FOR 19NOVEMBERRRRR! I'll finally meet Kisp in person! (:
Plussss, they say he'll shake our hands twice! Teehee ^^

xoxo,W

Messed up.

Sitting here, i'm filled with thoughts i know i can't handle. Too many what ifs and too many idontknows. Last night i made a promise to myself, a promise that i'll wait. Little did i know that you're already a step ahead.
True or not, i really don't know.

I really can't keep exposing myself to these heartaches again and again.
It's been a long painful walk from the past till now, and i've learned a lot and gone through enough to know that the amount of pain isn't gonna be worth it if he doesn't feel a thing. But what was i supposed to do if my heart and mind worked separately?

I did try, i honestly did. In fact i doubt i've ever stopped trying since day 1 but where am i now?
I'm right where i started.

It's been really tough without him.
And i thought i pulled through.
But honestly, did i?

Everyone thinks i'm crazy and i can't agree more. For the first time, i'm feeling as though i'm a completely changed person and i no longer know how to curb my feelings.
And it stinks. Cuz there's really nothing i can do.
And even if there is, what are the chances of it working?

Anyway, kong sent me this link which really cheered me up (:



You see, this is my only distraction now.
And sometimes it doesn't even work. I hate how messed up my life is, yet there's nothing i can do to stop it from getting worse.
Just give me something, anything, anyone, to make things better.
Please.

xoxo,W

I think my heart just died
:'(

xoxo,W

2MIN ♥

Something to start my day with (:



♥♥♥♥♥



And for those who said Minho can't sing or dance...



Take that back kay? (:

♥ My 2 favourite boys!

And i'm really gonna miss them..

xoxo,W

Goodbye with Hello

It's their Goodbye stage today..



So adorable even when he forgot to sing his part..
Can see that they're really tired, and this whole breaking news shit is tiring them further.
Something bad's gonna happen?
Oh no please..

Anyway, my favourite girls are back (:



That arrow dance is seriously hot stuff.
Fany looks grrrrreat with that hair and Yoona is hawt as ever!
Didn't really like Hyo's hair though.. :'(
And Yuri.. needless to say! <3

xoxo,W

tearfest.com

xoxo,W
ease the pain

[Confession/Realization]

It hurts all over again.
Can't.Contain.

I guess i'm really not over it.
And i only just realized.
When things like this sets in, i'll start to wonder "Who can i turn to now?"
Cuz honestly, i've been acting like it's done and it's fine and that I'm fine.
But seriously?
Far from it.

I can't, i really can't.
What other distractions are there?
To keep me occupied, to keep me sane, to keep my mind away from everything else.
To keep the pain away..
I feel really crappy now, and this is like a repeated torment.
Something that happens all the time, at unexpected moments :'(
What can i do to make it better?

Oh god give me the strength please.

xoxo,W
that's another place for me not to visit.
I have so many, i'm starting to lose count.

Heartbreaker

Don't wanna feel those crazy heartwrenching moments again. Ever.
Yesterday was a whole load of craziness coming one after another.
First jjong, then that stupid rumor about Taem -.-
Then again, why does it feel so... odd?

Ahh well anyway, this whole club thing was an eye opener for me.
I see so many different kinds of people every meetup. Some nice, some weird, some extremely sweet...
I saw this couple, the guy was really supportive and all... And the things that he'll do to actually show that he supports his girlfriend was like.. awww?
Aigoo when i saw them i was like "oh manz.. why he so sweet?!"

Yeahhhh man, i want someone like that..
*enters dream mode*

• stay indoors, equip ourselves with snacks and just watch videos to pass time
• i can spazz over the guys and he can go crazy over the girls
• and we'll have unlimited things to talk about..
  

You know? Like have a common interest!
Nowadays whenever i'm out and hear random kpop songs playing in shops, i spazz a little inside and i always do a quick scan to see if the people around me are as crazy as me.
And half the time they're not :(
Unless if i'm with the girls <3
There's a never-ending topic for us to talk about (:

Anywayz, I wanna finish up all the WGM episodes that i've downloaded by tonight (:
Since there's no school tmrw :DDD

Can't wait for MB tmrw. The babes are back in the game.
HOOT! 훗
(Sica and Yuri are seriously smexy)

xoxo,W

:/
Pretends to be seasick and decorates the place just for her.
아이고~
So sweet!

Seranade

Remember when i said i like Yongseo more than Khuntoria?
Yeah well i actually can't decide.
Both are equally as sweet -.-
Cute-sweet and sweet-sweet. Geddit?
Khun just sang for her and surprised her with a car, omgahh?

Anyway, am gonna meet the clique in town, then the girls at Dhoby tmrw <3
I like simple life like that.
Just chilling and hanging around doing nothing (:

xoxo,W

Yongseo

Omg, sweetest duet ever.
Idk why but i like Yong more than Khun, and i'm really starting to like Seohyun.
Hahahaha.
Aigooo, so sweet.

He's so sweeeeeet! <3
All the little things he did for her..

xoxo,W

Miracle

I need a miracle.
Things haven't been going that well lately, and problems are coming one after another.
Feels like nothing is working out at all :'(
Miracle please?

No school tmrw and on Weds. I'm gonna sleep till as late as i can and seriously catch up on my sleep.
My dark circles and eyebags are no joke anymore.

xoxo,W

OH.MY.GAWD.

*Fangirl mode: ON ON ON!*

adlkjsowuiahskdjnmznxlasid!!
KPOPNIGHT CONCERT LAST NIGHT WAS A B-B-B-BLASSSTTT!
My baby sang Jjong's part for Lucifer (held his breath for 12s!) and was so proud of himself after that!
<3 <3 <3

Eeeesh why so cute!

And all of them are like walking gods. I love my standing position actually..
At least i get to see them damn close when they walk down the stage to the other stage (:
ALL OF THEM LOOKED LIKE GODS & GODDESSES!

Hyoyeon was seriously pretty last night! Loving her more each time manz!
And as expected, snsd was hawt stuff and when they appeared, the fanboys went from crazy to crazier!
I screamed like an idiot for them too though, hehe! I love snsd okayyy, not just boy groups.

So anywayzzz, Lesley's "KIBUM" LED board has gained her a lot of attention!
Key saw her board, walked down from the main stage and onto the extenstion, pointed at her and smiled!
!@#$^%&*(&^%$#
Next time i'm gonna do a TAEMIN LED board too ^^

Oh and, KARAM WAVED INTO MY CAM!
(can't see his eyes cause my quality was damn bad since everyone was pushing and shoving around)
But wtfzxzxzx, he's so cute!

I wish Taem would wave into my camera too.
Then i'll die happy. Heh.

TAEMIN HAS GROWN UP ALREADY! He can sing well now (:
Well enough to sing Jjong's part!
Whaddaya think!
I was so happy when i saw him sing jjong's part (especially the 12s breath holding part for Lucifer) that my eyes were welling up! Unknowingly somemore..
Damnz, he's awesome.

Key and Taem were so cute yesterday.. Key held Taem's hands and hugged him.
Awwwzzxzxzx.
Mother & Son love.

Okayz, i will upload all the pictures and videos up tmrw.
^^

xoxo,W

Hey baby.

2 days time till i see my baby ♥

Too many things are screwing up and problems are coming one after another.
At times like this i wish time would stop, just for a little while.
And i get reaaallllyyyy demoralized when things don't work out -.-
But the thought of being able to see him in 2 days time, makes everything a hell lot better.
Teehee ^^
*disgusting fangirl mode, ON*

Anyway, Solomon and i had a farewell lunch treat by Julian and Gordon (:
I really like talking to them, feels as though we can click well!
And Julian drove me to AMK for my night doorknocking session with Clara (yesssss i love his car!)
He actually told me "Actually i think you're really good at telemarketing. You can speak very well"
HAHAHAHAHA yayzxzx

Okay so tmrw i'm gonna give out surveys at Jurong Point (Brandon's homeplace, LOL) and once i finish 100 copies i can leave.
COME ON WAIYIN!
For the sake of the meetups and the settling of everything, i'm gonna do whatever it takes to end work early.
And tmrw's the last day omggggg thankgod.
Internship is killing me and draining all my energy -.-

Okay, gotta go get busy now. HT is showing alreadyyyyy!

Goodnight! And i really hope that all the rumors about jjong & top & minho not coming to SG is fake. I realllyyy hope so.

xoxo,W

I feel like i'm reliving that period of time again.
Pain, heartache, tears, crap. Yeah you get what i mean.
Bottomless pit all over again.
What's happening to me?

I miss you.

And the 1 thing i've been telling myself for the past 1 year is to let you go and let everything pass.
But who am i kidding?
I thought i was fine.
Yeah well, i thought.

It's a lot harder than i thought, and it's taking longer than i expected.
But surprisingly the pain feels the same.
That horrible, raw pain.

I guess nothing changed.

Drained

So exhausted now, mentally & physically.
I can't wait for Internship to end, but then again, school's gonna start.
I'm so sick of internship because firstly, the pay is crap, and secondly the hours are reallllllyyy long -.-
But i know i'll miss them, which is why i'm going back to work part time (cuz of various reasons)

My dark circles are covering half of my face, my eyebags are reaching the ground.
Yet everyday i sleep at a weird hour, and force myself out of bed every morning.
And now things are going haywire and idk what i can do to make it better :'(
Really need that extra motivation but from where? -.-

Anywayyyy, SATURDAY IS COMING!
I'm gonna make sure i enjoy myself to the fullest on that day ^^
Gonna see the Boyz, especially my baby! (:
Can't wait! Seriously!
Taem will make everything better <3

Yeah okay enough of me blabbering about how much i wanna see him.
I should start getting serious and come up with a solution with the girls :/
I hope we turn into Gods overnight and work a miracle on those shirts.
Seriously..

xoxo,W

HOT STUFF HOT SALE!

Taem, Onew, Key, Jjong sold out in 2 days!
And only a few more packs of Minho left!
Shineeworld is amazing seriously (:

1st batch, 10kg sold out in 6 hours.
2nd batch, 50kg in total, 48kg sold out within 2 days.
This is awesome~ seriouslaaayyeeee.

And i've skipped lunch for 2 days in a row (: This whole project thingy is gonna help me lose weight <3 I LIKEY!

xoxo,W

Stickys~

2nd batch is hot stuff!
Sold more than 300 in less than 6 hours (:
Let's keep this goingggg!

Support us thanks!

xoxo,W

From start to end

Things are getting harder.
At times i'll think to myself "things are getting a lot better, my thoughts are more controlled and i'm getting the hang of this"
But there's always this darker side lingering around. And it'll always be "can't get over it, can't cope, can't take this"
I'm starting to doubt that i'll ever get back on track.
Cuz right now i don't know where i'm heading, and i can't get back. It's as though my heart controls my mind and there's nothing i can do to stop it.
I'm not supposed to feel like this. I thought i've gotten over it and things were brightening up but no.

The things that run through my mind at night scares me. And i wake up every morning feeling as though a part of me has died all over again.
Time and again, i fall back into this bottomless pit.
What are my chances of getting out for real? Honestly...
Zilch.

xoxo,W

exhaustion

Too exhausted to do anything else.
But i like being this tired. I like how i don't think about stuffs.
Which is why i agreed to work for the company again when school reopens.
Becuz being tired is the only way my heart remains unhurt.
This'll work. It has to!

Gonna keep myself busy busy busy busy. The busier the better.

xoxo,W

WGM

Can't ever watch a single episode of WGM without feeling horrible.
It always feels as though something is missing (and i know there is) but there's really nothing i can do about it.
It always makes me feel.... strange.
Like i'll miss you all over again.

xoxo,W
what am i supposed to do at times like these?

TB10 ! (:

Timetable selection settled!
TB10 with the clique (: School life is gonna rock all over again manzxz.

Oh here's something that made me LOL to myself all of a sudden.
Hyun : "Come back soon~"
Yong : "If i don't come back, just assume that i fell into the water"
HAHAHAHA gotta love yong even more now!

I think i like yongseo slightly more than khuntoria cuz yong is so....awww?! I mean yah, khun is very sweet and all but i think Yong is whoa! Hahaha. Don't get what i mean anyway..
I love both couples. Megaaaaa.
Not forgetting the adam couple also lah, but that i'm not so hardcore.

ANYWAYYY. WEIKAI JUST MADE MY DAY! (or night)
THANKZXZXZXZX! Now i can have my baby's picture on my home page whooooo!
Okay bye! (:

xoxo,W

HELLO, SHUT UP!

awww my baby's hair is back to bowl. But so adorable la?!

Okay you need to watch this!



Omg Onew, i LOLed.
And Taem shouldn't do that cuz i keep spazzingggggg!

OKAY NOW UKISS!



OMGGGG KISEOPPPPP

xoxo,W

2nd Batch otw!

SHINEEWORLDSG's 1st batch of Sticky sold out in 6 hours!
<3
Shawols are really awesome for supporting us!

Anyway, 2nd batch is already on it's way! Cuz we rushed down to straight away to Sticky once our 1st batch was sold out. Apologies to those who came and it was already out of stock :'(

Andddd, 2nd batch is seriously gonna be daebak!
Even before it's produced, i'm damn tempted to buy it already.
It's really pretty, really awesome, and really really one of a kind.
Can't get it anywhere else (promise) cuz we really talked to the boss and his wife to help us with this 2nd batch (:
And they're really nice people btw!
So thankful (:

Gonna be a personal supplier tmrw to pass albums to the Pasir Ris shawols.

(abrupt change in topic/mood/everything)

I actually really like what i'm doing now.
It takes everything off my mind cuz i'll be too busy with the albums, the meetups, the candies and all.
I have no time to let my thoughts run wild. And i really like it when i can fall asleep the minute my head touches the pillow. I like that a lot.
Too many sleepless nights before.
This is how i keep my thoughts far and the pain away.
My heart needs a break. I need a break.
I'm running out of tears..

xoxo,W

Albums, stickys, clique (:

I'll start with a little bit of advertising.

Hey Shawols out there, please support our Gift Project by getting one of these cute packs of Sticky! (:
Customized, and we're giving it to the boys as well.
Flavour : Grape
Price : $5

I think it's really cute and i'm so glad we actually decided to do it (:
Hardwork paid off after all!

So anyway, today was really awesome (minus the fact that depression caught up with me).

• Dad sent me to work
  
• Favourite YongTauFoo for lunch with Kat, Solomon & Jade
• Made 3 appointments
• Dad picked me up and sent us down to Yishun MRT
• Distributed Albums and sold our Sticky (:
  
• Collected my Hello Repackaged and Ukiss's Album!
  
• Got Kiseop's photocardddddddddddd!
  
• Met up with the beloved Clique @ Newton Circus
  
• Baby looked so adorable in today's Mubank.
  

Couldn't believe that i actually felt so depressed in the office today after lunch. Practically turned into a really angsty bitch. Sat there and stared at my calling list before i went into the toilet and the angry tears just came. I don't even know why. Seriously, i think i'm losing my mind.
Stress? Idk. Really have no idea.

But everything became better once work ended. I swear i'm dreading to go work, especially when the Kiseop guy isn't there :'(

Met up with the girls @ Yishun and sold our Sticky and distributed the albums (:

Awwwwwww~

Okay sorry for the lousy quality of the pictures cuz i took it straight from my phone.
Was too excited about it i didn't really bother about picture quality.
This is all about luck, seriously.
When i bought the lucifer album, i got Taem's Photocard.
And now i got Kiseop's! (:
Me likey. ALOT.

Dinner @ Newton Circus with the favourite clique was (as usual) awesome.
It's nice having them around, i always end up laughing myself silly.
Especially with their nonsense and whatnots.

1. Kong who will always utter nonsense and act like he's drunk (and download all sorts of games and weird stuffs on my phone to entertain himself, and always forgets to delete them -.-)
2. Shawn who always has his own newly-formed words and weird logics (basically living in his own world)
3. Flo who is always our DaJie, who comes late and leaves early (HAHAHHA i'm gonna die)
4. Franky who is like the shellfish addict..
5. Jaryl who is the richest guy among us (he sponsored $20 for Flo and my cab fare home. Awww??!)
6. Xiaoting who is usually unable to catch up with what our joke is (hahaha!)
7. Yuming who doesn't dare to go home alone (and even tried to psycho all of us to acc him till the next morning -.- )
   

Okay omg i'm so sleepy now i'm typing in pieces.
Gotta meet the girls @ cityhall tmrw for the next meetup session for more selling of sticky and distribution of albums (:

I feel like i'm an insurance agent now. I go and meet people and sell them Sticky.
Except, i don't have commission for doing this. LOL.
Kayz bye. Prolly gonna make a trip down to Bedok to pass them their sticky (:

BTW! MY BABY LOOKS SO ADORABLE IN TODAY'S MUBANK!
He's back to his Juliette hairstyle... Not my fav, but he pulls it off well.
Yeah well he can make the ugliest hairstyle look... nice.



*dies*

xoxo,W