Flea fly flo.

SWSG flea today and it rocked :)

Y'know how other stalls are trying to decorate their booths to make it attractive and all... We just went there and we took out our files, bromides, photosets, postcards, etc. And we're pretty much done. Didn't need to decorate anything at all.

The boys' faces was all that was needed.

The weather was a bitch so i had to bun up my hair and it's messy like -.-

Sales was good, thankfully :)

Then we went for dinner @ Paradise Dynasty (or so i think) just because of this.

To us, it's known as 'colourful xlb' :/

HAHAHAH! It's a long story, but xlb just means xiao long bao.

And i really think it's my first time eating xlbs. /mountain tortoise

Anywayzzzz, i came home feeling too lazy to shower immediately so.... i photo spammed. Hyakhyak!

Yah what's new, i know right.

And becuz of the bun, my hair curled like i survived an explosion.

Teehee, the nerd specs that i love so much. Since it was within reach, i HAD to put it on.

And on an even brighter note, GG ep 16 is done downloading :) -throws confetti-

Got to mug for HRM tmrw. I'll need all the luck in the world. Tamp or Airport?

Oh, and i didn't know that my dressing today was close to the "Taeyeon concept" until my sis told me, and until Lesley told Eileen -.-

Like this concept.

Love her bun. Mine can never stay so perfectly.

(Fyi, i'm not trying to boast AT ALL. She's damn godly and i'll never be compared to her. This is just... a coincidence. I thought 10 times through before deciding to post this, cuz i'm sure i'll get comments. But ok, suck it up.)

xoxo,W

simple things

I'm so thankful that there's always someone there when i need a listening ear :')

And today it was Jamie.

I can't express how much i love her and lesley. And how thankful i am to have met them :')

Tonight, i plunge into that bottomless pit again. And tonight, as like all other nights, i know you won't be there to catch me.

But i'd still fall anyway, hoping that one day things will be different. Just a little faith.

xoxo,W

Chances

Just a thought.

But i'm glad. At least for what i've done and tried to do..

Anyway, woke up to a bad start this morning. With news of Xander & Kibum :'( Such news make me think of what will happen if this same thing happens to my 5 favourite boys. Idk how i'll feel if Taem was 1 of them. Blaaaaaaaaahhhhhh :(

But still.. Why ukiss? They're the last i'd think of about groups breaking up.

xoxo,W

Trapped

I really wanna talk.. But i can't right?

If i do then i'll just be a burden all over again. I need to leave. Like really just.. Disappear. Ohgod this hurts.

How do i start?

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Taem ♥

What's there not to love about this boy?

It's not just all about the guys

I still can't get enough of this.

It's been on repeat for some time (:

1. Song, tune is great

2. Lyrics are awesome

3. The girls looking as gorgeous as ever :')

The only girl group i actually like so much.

Wow.

xoxo,W

Hey baby ♥

The boy is getting better each day :')

I get goosebumps just listening to him sing. Hahaha!

Jamie totally made my night by showing me this video of their recent event :')

Taem can totally hold notes now! ♥♥♥

Jjong, you gotta come back to sing or else my baby is gonna take over soon!

It'll be so much nicer if the fans didn't scream!

But i understand how they feel. HAHAHA i'd scream my lungs out anytime if he does that in SG!

xoxo,W

awesome♥

Home sweet home

I'm so glad to finally be home and sleeping on my own bed again (: I don't ever wanna be hospitalised like that again. I really don't like it.

Was supposed to be discharged tmrw but i couldn't stop crying when i reached the B ward and i requested to be discharged tonight. It's an undescribable feeling the minute i got to the ward. It's so.. Idk. I just knew that i'll never be able to sleep if i stayed there.

The A ward was a whole lot better and honestly, thankgod the B ward was full yesterday so i got to stay in the A ward for 1 night. Thank God! It was alrdy hard for me to fall asleep in the A ward (1 person per room). Imagine if i stayed at the B ward tonight... I kept asking mum to get the doctor to discharge me.

Ahhwell it was just horrible.

And i'm so touched that lesley came to visit me despite her staying in yishun and not knowing the way to CGH (: love her to bits!

Thanks to those who texted, called or tweeted (: appreciate it ♥ it's nice to know who are those who cares :')

xoxo,W

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I wanna go home... I don't like it here :( the drip is restricting everything :(

Please let me go home soon. Please stop the pain soon..




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A little breakaway

Today was pretty much jjong-filled. Since it's Jowell's birthday, Lesley & I went around singapore (or roughly) to get some stuffs (:

- Met Lesley @ Dhoby and walked to Peace Center to print an A0 poster of Jjong to use as guestbook (:

- Walked from Peace center to Bras basah to get speaker from Joyce.

- Walked to a party shop at bugis to get masquerade masks (or how you spell it) for the party.

- Went to Lesley's house to get the presents and finally went down to Sembawang Beach for to settle the bbq stuff.

Both of us struggled like hell to start the fire cuz the wind was totally not helping. Thankgod Pris came in time to help blow the balloons and i tied it to the pillars.

Lesley & I were panicking cuz everyone wasn't here yet and Jowell was almost reaching -.- /stressed

But anw i had fun with the girls ^^ it's been awhile since i've been to the beach (:

Oh! And Jowell's cake was a heart shaped cake with Jjong's face on it (: awesome right? And we screamed when she cut his face into half. HAHAHAHAH! bad sight. The cake was so pretty that no one wanted to cut it, so her mum helped had to do it in the end LOL! Epic.

It's nice... Spending time with the girls. But beaches reminds me of the past.

I should sleep.

xoxo,W

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It's 2am on valentine's day, and i haven't cried so hard in months. Maybe even a year..

But why did it suddenly start to hurt again? Why did the memories come so quickly? And why did i read my old blog?

Idk.. I'm feeling the same way i felt 2 years ago. That raw stinging feeling, that breathlessness.. It's so painfully familiar.

I guess i still miss you all these time.

xoxo,W
i can't breathe
My eyes are stinging.


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Happy Valentine's ♥

여러분~!! 해피발렌타인 데이! ^^

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE! ♥♥♥

I'm spending it with my girls this year (:

It'll be great, i know it.

And to be very honest, i've never spent valentine's with a guy before. Hahaha, it has always been with my babes. So i guess i shouldn't feel upset.

Though it would have been very different... Ahh well. Perk up!

xoxo,W

Happy valentine's, you ♥

I miss you everyday

Each time my action reminds me of you, i find myself staring blankly into space. Idek if i was reliving those days or was i just... Surprised?

And every night i feel weak. So weak that i pick up the phone with lots to say to you but my finger hits cancel by the time i'm done typing. Cuz it wasn't right to do that. And i can't keep being weak. I stop myself.

I'm doing everything i was told to do in order to feel better. But why does my heart still hurt so much with every breath i take, and with every thought of you?

So what do i do now? Fall? Go back to being weak? Keep holding on? What...?

xoxo,W



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Ohwell.

너 아라? 내가 정말 사랑해요 하지만 너는 몰라. 절대몰라

왜 이러께? 내 마음이 너무 아파요

아~ 찐자... 나 오늘 일찍 자요.

굿나잇~ ㅠㅠ

xoxo,W
I dont even know where to start


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Secret Garden

I've been watching SG these few weeks and it's making me laugh and cry like an idiot. For awhile it felt like love is the easiest thing on earth and the next, it's like something i can never overcome.

I cried like an idiot at parts cuz it related to me, somehow.. And it hurts.

I don't like it when i think of the past. When i think of how everything went from perfect to pieces. When i think of how much it hurts there and then. When i think of how hard and long it took me to get past everything. When i think of how i'm only barely moving on.

I don't like any of it.

And try as hard as i may to forget everything, i honestly can't.

Because this is the scar he left.

One that i doubt will ever fade.

xoxo,W

imy

Grenade

I've been listening to Grenade these days and the lyrics are really pricking me. And the past will eventually come back to me. Whut -.-

"I'll do anything for you.. But you won't do the same."

These 2 lines hurt the most.

xoxo,W


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SS3 withdrawal symptoms

I'm resisting every urge to blog about SS3 but i guess i can't. I'm literally screaming inside right now :/

SS3 was dope! And i got to see Siwon upclose (like less than 1m away) and I REALLY THOUGHT I WOULD DIE IN THE STADIUM!

I loved the spot that i was standing at cuz there was this small platform that they can actually jump onto and they'll be like 1m away from us (: *screams like there's no tmrw*

So... Siwon, Hyuk, Shindong, Chul, Kyu actually jumped onto that platform and gave really awesome fanservice!

First person who went to the platform was Hyuk! He stood there like a model and just froze. Then he gave that smirk (cuz we couldn't touch him despite him being like 1m away from us) and he went back on stage and got crazy.

Then Siwon came to the platform and he did the "okay" sign to us. /swoons.

My god, Siwon looked like a god i swear! He looks so flawless and don't even get me started on his abs!

Those abs are god-like! Like, photoshop 1000 times kind of abs.

It was so awesome and so defined! Omgaahhh i screamed till i almost died right there. I swear, AWESOME ABS! AWESOME!

When Siwon was singing his solo song, i cried -.- It felt as though i was dreaming because my favourite guy was standing there, in just a plain white shirt and jeans, and singing such a lovely ballad. People were screaming his name and cheering but i just stood there, stoned and tearing. /slaps

Then the worst part of the night was when SUJU had this performance for Kangin. It was so touching and extremely sad especially when they showed Kangin trying to reach out to touch the members but it just went through them ;'(

Entire stadium was chanting "Kim Young Woon" and the suju boys looked so sad.

Teuk was crying and Siwon looked like he was about to cry..

I cried. Like a complete fool. And all the ELFs around me were crying too.

So just imagine, a mosh pit full of fangirls initially screaming and cheering, now all suddenly standing still and crying while chanting Kim Young Woon. It's a sight i'll never forget.

AND THE BEST PART OF THE NIGHT?

I CAUGHT THE YELLOW ROSE THAT RYEOWOOK KISSED AND THREW! :):):):):):):):)

It was really coincidental though.. I was actually at the other side of the pit when my sis and i decided to just go crazy and run around the pit.

Then i spotted Wook running towards the same side as i was running to.

I saw something on the stage but couldn't really see what it was.. so i just continued running towards Wook.

Then he picked up the yellow rose, kissed it, and threw it to the mosh pit i was in.

So i just randomly stuck my hand out and jumped (trying my luck to see if i can get it)

AND IT LANDED IN MY HANDS! My last finger hooked onto it and i just grabbed it.

HEHEHEHEHEHEH!

And then i realised there was someone else's hand on the rose! Turned out that it was my sis. HAHAHAHAHA So both of us stood there and screamed to ourselves for like 5mins before we continued running around the pit (:

The yellow rose that made me so fucking happy (:

Teehee!

Wook's fanservice was damn awesome.

Beverly had this lighted bunny ears hairband and she was wearing it when she suddenly told me "eh waiyin help me throw on stage can? pls!"

so i took it and threw it on stage and it almost hit wook, but it landed on the floor in between wook and yesung! Both of them looked at the hairband but continued singing..

then all of a sudden Wook bent down and took it! And he raised it high in the air to show everyone, then he threw it back to Bev! HAHAHHA

Awesome or what! Bev nearly died when she caught the hairband.

Awwwwww :')

Okay i should stop fangirling away in my blog. So unglamorous -.-

Anw i had the worst food poisoning case yesterday morning :'(

Woke up at 5am and died in the toilet till about 6am, and i couldn't sleep cuz my stomach was hurting like a bitch and i kept having the urge to puke.

Couldn't even make it for the appointment at the polyclinic cuz i can't walk at all and Dad had to come back from work to send me to the doctor :')

Aye okay i wanna catch up on SG (:

xoxo,W