Life's simplest things

Spent a great day with my 2 lovely girls today (:
Pris made both of us laugh so hard, i couldn't swallow my rice properly! That girl has a weird sense of humour that somehow... makes you wanna laugh along with her.
Unglam max.

So i was clearing up my desk yesterday and i seriously threw out a whole lot of stuffs cuz my room was becoming really messy (and partly becuz of another incident which i'll tell you later).
And so... i finally cleared out some stuffs which i shouldn't keep. Stuffs that brought a lot of heartache whenever i looked at it.
I finally did it.
It really wasn't easy but at that point all i could think of was that it was impossible to go back to how things were so i might as well clear it out cuz it was a constant reminder of the past. And i really can't handle the thoughts and the pain anymore.
I just wanna heal. Mend the broken pieces and start again.

So yes, i cleared it. All of it.
My girls were proud of me but why is it that i still feel that tinge of regret?
That guilty feeling..

I guess i'll never really be able to understand my feelings.
Cuz i'm a mess like that.

Right, gonna door-knock tmrw before i head to work extra extra early to chill with the girls! (:
Can't wait to work with Bevv and Jamie tmrw ♥
Work takes my mind off a lot of things.
I like it that way ♥

xoxo,W

Eyes that sparkles

PLEASE DON'T RIP THE PICTURES THANKS (:
Cr. if you wanna rip it. Thanks a billion.

Here's only a few pictures, the rest are up on my FB (:

Wonderful 7 boys ♥

Ukiss fanmeet was awesome because we were standing in the first row and right in the middle!
Best view (:

And the part where the boys actually jumped off the stage was the best of all!
I was that close to touching soohyun but the securities came -.-
But they were DAMN CLOSE omg.

Eli and his cheeky smile ♥
Stalked them and our maxi cab just right beside theirs.
Eli did a heartshape with his fingers to my sis and she nearly died in the cab

Then they were at Iluma but we reached before them and surprisingly they were walking towards us to go up the escalator!
And so we talked to them since we were the only ones there hehe! ^^

Xander : Heyy! We're going for lunch! Wanna join us? Hahahha

Pris lost her mind when she saw Kevin.

Pris : Kevin! You guys are amazing!
Kevin : Hehe Thankyou! ^^


Then we followed them back to their hotel! And guess what!
They were carrying boxes filled with gifts hahaha.

Xander and Soohyun waving ♥
KISEOPPPPP ♥
It's a little dark cuz my lighting was still adjusting but i snapped cuz they were walking too fast -.-
It's Eli, and Kiseop's behind him.

This is their rooms! (the 2nd floor)
We parked our cabs right outside hahaha.
Then it was the concert at Bedok Reservoir.
After the concert we left for the airport (:
And managed to see them leave!
I'm sorry but my phone doesn't take very clear pictures apparently -.- especially when you're on the escalator with about 20+ people behind you pushing and trying to take pictures too.

This is better, standing on flat ground and in the first row (: But the securities were blocking the way laaaaa! >:/
Thankgod i still managed to snap a picture of him.

Kisp looking dorkyyyy at the airport! ♥♥♥

Yeah well, Kisp's the first person that i actually gave a gift to! I know it's damn fail but i didn't give Taem anything cuz well, i didn't go for their fanmeet :/

Put in my heart and soul in making his gift. And sorry but i'm not the artistic type ah -.-

I really like this box hahaha (:

Personalized iphone4 casing for him since he got his new Iphone 4 recently (:

I swear i've never done anything so pretty for anyone before -.- Idk why i had the inspiration to do this.

The inside of the card (:
I know, please ignore the "add me on twitter" thing cuz i totally forgot that it's impossible -.-
But heyyy! He can reply tweets what!
So i'm still waiting for the day he replies mine ♥
Teehee ^^

My gift very pathetic right? T_T
I really had no time to shop for anything and that iphone case, i literally ran into the shop at 10pm to buy it -.- Thankgod they're still open.

And the boy signed my album (:
I tell you, it was mad crazy havoc at the fansign cuz only 1 member can sign our abums. And it's randomly assigned okay! I prayed so hard that i'll get Kiseop, and I DID! ♥
Yah cuz i die also make sure i count the people infront of me properly and join the right queue to make sure i get kiseop (:

I love that boy. He spoke to me and i ALMOST died.
Plus did i mention that his eyes were really sparkling! And his smile was so sweet! *dies*


Him : *sees me walking to his table* 안녕하세요~ (hello) *with the brightest smile i've seen so far*
Me : 안녕하세요! (hello)

Passed him a small piece of paper with my name on it, asking him to write my name on the album (:

He stared at my name for awhile before he wrote it down on the album! HAHAHA.

He wrote W, then he paused.. checked the paper again and wrote AI then stopped again.
And finally wrote YIN.

While he was writing my name and signing, i decided to talk to him.

Me : 기섭아~ (kiseop ah~)
Him : *stops signing and looks up at me* 예? (yeah?)
Me : 건강하세요~ ^^ (stay healthy/ take care)
Him : *stunned for awhile, then smile and nod his head continuously) 오~네네 건강하세요! (oh~ yesyes stay healthy too!)

Him : *pass me the album, waved and said* 안녕 byebye~! 감사합니다! seeyou later! ^^
Me : Thankyou! Yeahhh seeyou later! hahaha bye! (:

When i was about to walk off he stopped me. Then he stretched out his hands and said "seeyou later" again while shaking my hand.


Aiyohhh he's so cute i think i'm gonna die! His smile is really... damn awesome. Plus his eyes. Combo.

Okay anyway yah, i had no intention to do a fan account of the fanmeet but it just happened naturally hahahah!

Arghh gotta go to school tmrw :(
Better sleep early.
Goodnight y'all ♥

xoxo,W
i should really watermark my photos soon.

UKISSME

Best day of my life yesterday ♥
I'm still in hangover mode now sorry :/ I can't get Kiseop's smiling face out of my head seriously.
That boy really made my day ♥

I'll upload the pictures of the fanmeet and concert and our stalking pictures up soon!
Too tired now cuz i woke up extra early today for Suju tickets :/
Thankgod we got it!

Alright, gotta get back to finishing up my ppt slides before i get slaughtered by my group for being unproductive because ukiss came to SG. HAHAHA.

Oh and one more thing!
HAPPY HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY C.!
loveyou babe, have a good one!

P.S : Will post about yesterday's fanmeet and everything else soon! Give you all the teeny weeny details (:

xoxo,W
Kiseopppppppppp ♥

아파요 :(

Went to school today feeling like a lump of crap :/
Ditched the clique (i'm so sorryyyy) and went home for mum's home cooked lunch before i collapsed on the sofa and slept till 5pm.
I really have no idea why i felt so crappy this morning.

SGB and IY did their thing and worked a miracle (:

Anw, meeting the girls tmrw again! ^^
Gonna get high over the slightest things that Pris can come up with heheh ♥
Love love love them thissss much! *does the Yoogeun hand action*

Can't wait for Friday~
금요일 빨리와~!! 내가 기섭이 보고싶다! 빨리 빨리!
유키스 팬미트! ♥

오~ 잘자요~
Goodnight! ^^

xoxo,W
things will get better.

Keep it going

Beezee bee these days.
Sleeping at a super ungodly hour and waking up at an inhumanely early hour :/
i always complain about having not enough sleep yet i'm not doing anything about it -.- What am i doing to myself? Idek.

Work's fun, i really love it actually (:
Especially when the people there are actually familiar faces heheh ^^
There's Bevv and now there's Seewei!
And ofcourse Jamie ♥

Anywayz, 3rd batch of Stickys launched (:
Cuter than we thought! So glad that our designs are getting nicer and nicer with each new batch. I can smile just looking at it (:

I like being busy. I love it actually.
Keeps my mind off a lot of stuffs.

Anddddd, i'm finally collecting my Ukiss tix today ♥

Plus, i actually unprivated my Twitter just for the sake of tweeting to Kisp. Ever since he created his Twitter account yesterday morning. HAHAHAHA i'm so sorry but i really like him. If only Taem had a twitter. Sighhh... ㅠㅠㅠㅠ

I just realised that up till now... all those that i like, are either Lee, or Choi :/

Lee
Taemin and Kiseop

Choi
Siwon & Minho

Aye, fated!

Plus i just realised that Taem created this face! ^^;; 아이고 너무 귀엽다!

안녕~! ^^

xoxo,W

A little not too well.

Haven't been blogging much lately (ok it's just 2 days but yah..)
Really tired these days and all i wanna do is sleep :'( I need to catch up on a lot of sleep because there's too many late nights and extremely early mornings.
My dark circles are covering my cheeks and my eyebags are touching the floor pretty soon. And it's bad because despite all these i'm still sleeping at a really really unearthly hour. Shizzzz.

Anywayz, settled the Stickys today with Lesley and i think with every new batch we order, our designs are getting better and better (: Comparing the 1st, the 2nd and now this 3rd batch, i'll just say... we've upgraded (:
I like how both of us always have this "money making" mindset and the ideas that keep coming to us.
And when we decide on taking the risk, we'll be really hardcore about it.
The 2nd batch is the best example.
Who in the right mind will order 50kg of customized stickys without even knowing if people will actually buy? Yeah, us.
We just went head in and ordered.
And in 2 days... All.Sold.Out. (:
Love itttt~

I guess i'm gonna fall sick soon. My nose is dying all over again and my eyes are barely open.
Yet i have so much things to do... ugh oh god please save me :(

Ohyes! And i'm officially working (:
Can't wait to start this Saturdayyyyy with Jamie!
Small world, cuz Bevv works there too!
♥

Alright, gonna hit the sack now.

P.S : Khuntoria's house is damn pretty lah why?! When i saw it yesterday during Lecture, i was shrieking to myself and Shawn thought i was nuts.. -.-

xoxo,W

Escape

Back from a 3D2N trip to Genting and i'm already missing it..
I miss the cold weather (no perspiration for 1 whole day is like heaven)
I miss the freedom i have there (with no worries whatsoever)
And i miss the peaceful state my mind was in while i was there.
At least i know that the reason why my heart felt weird was because i took the SpaceShot and Viking, and that it wasn't because of the past.
I liked how that feel. It felt as though i had it all under control.
But now that i'm back in Singapore, it's a totally different story altogether.

Anywayz! Emoish stuffs aside.....
I had a fairly good retail therapy (:
Shopping alone isn't that bad afterall y'know!

Shall post about the trip tmrw ^^
Btw, for the first time in my life, i stayed in a $500+ per night Hotel.
And it was fucking awesome.
Pictures up whenever my cousin decides to upload them (:
hehehe.

For now, i'm gonna clear up my mail inbox, settle the horns, and get started on Episode 9 of UKCK (:

P.S: I CAN'T WAIT FOR 19NOVEMBERRRRR! I'll finally meet Kisp in person! (:
Plussss, they say he'll shake our hands twice! Teehee ^^

xoxo,W

Messed up.

Sitting here, i'm filled with thoughts i know i can't handle. Too many what ifs and too many idontknows. Last night i made a promise to myself, a promise that i'll wait. Little did i know that you're already a step ahead.
True or not, i really don't know.

I really can't keep exposing myself to these heartaches again and again.
It's been a long painful walk from the past till now, and i've learned a lot and gone through enough to know that the amount of pain isn't gonna be worth it if he doesn't feel a thing. But what was i supposed to do if my heart and mind worked separately?

I did try, i honestly did. In fact i doubt i've ever stopped trying since day 1 but where am i now?
I'm right where i started.

It's been really tough without him.
And i thought i pulled through.
But honestly, did i?

Everyone thinks i'm crazy and i can't agree more. For the first time, i'm feeling as though i'm a completely changed person and i no longer know how to curb my feelings.
And it stinks. Cuz there's really nothing i can do.
And even if there is, what are the chances of it working?

Anyway, kong sent me this link which really cheered me up (:



You see, this is my only distraction now.
And sometimes it doesn't even work. I hate how messed up my life is, yet there's nothing i can do to stop it from getting worse.
Just give me something, anything, anyone, to make things better.
Please.

xoxo,W

I think my heart just died
:'(

xoxo,W