USS

Spent the entire day at USS today cuz my Aunt & Uncle decided to take us there with my cousins :) AND I HAD A BLASSSSSTTTTT! I'm too tired to explain so i'll leave everything else to tmrw's update, together with the pictures ^^

xoxo, W

In my head

"Greys Anatomy Season 8 to be the final season?"

When i saw this sentence i froze. No, Greys, you can't do this to me! :'( Cannottttt! I'll have withdrawal symptoms forever i swear.. -heartbreak-

All these shows, they've taught me a lot and they've been keeping company throughout... Now that it's gonna end, it's gonna feel really weird. Blaaah!

-sidetrack-

Omg i can't believe i left my makeup pouch at Lesley's place -.- I need to be in town tmrw at 2pm and i have no makeup. Okay fuck my life, yes, but i need to get it before i go down! This is super bad lor.. :( I guess i'll just have to make use of whatever i have at home and do it with until i get mine back :/ Eeesh why am i so forgetful?

Come to think of it, ever since i posted the emotional post the other night, i'm starting to lose myself and i fall into daydreams and sadness so frequently. Just like this afternoon on my way back, i cried while listening to "The Harold Song" and suddenly everything started coming back to me. The raw painful feeling, like as though it happened only yesterday. And last night i dreamt of the past and it really felt like i was reliving it. Can someone please explain to me what's going on? Am i going crazy or something? :/

I can't. I really can't keep thinking about him and the past. It didn't work before, it's not working now and i guess it's never gonna work in the future either. So i really need to stop. He's fine, and i gotta be too.

I think i just need to sleep this off. Tmrw's gonna be better.

xoxo, W

Escape

Today marks the last day of the training session at SJC and it got super emotional towards the end :') The girls were really sweet and they even made cards for us! Sweetie pies.

After that i met up with the girls at Cathay for dinner at Aston's since it's our 5 favourite boys' 3rd year anniversary today and we had to celebrate it. In whichever form possible.

I didn't feel like going home today so i wanted to head down to Butter but i wasn't dressed for it so here i am, crashing at Lesley's place. Impromptu stayover and i'm actually wearing her bigbang tee now. HAHAHAHA.

I feel so nua now i don't wanna move.

Tmrw we're gonna do a photoshoot on our own :) I need fun things like this to keep me happy and occupied.

xoxo, W

Adaptation

Lexi : "I love you, and i'm always gonna love you. But i don't want to love you, i wanna be happy."

-Quoted from Greys Anatomy S07E22

Today it suddenly hit me that all these while, even though it doesn't hurt as much anymore, or that i'm finally used to being alone and not having you around me anymore isn't because i've stopped loving you. The fact is I still do.. but i guess i've adapted. For so long i've thought that i'm over you and that i've stopped loving you. The heartaches stopped and the tears didn't come anymore. And for that little while, i was happy.

If it was that easy to stop, i would have. But the thing is it's not. I love you and i always will, but it's not gonna hurt me anymore and it'll just be a feeling that i'll live with and i'm gonna fight like hell to be happy. Cuz i've finally understood how this thing works.

Because it's true, what they said... What doesn't kill you will only make you stronger right? This won't kill me anymore. If it's meant to work out, it would have worked itself out a long time ago. If it didn't, then what makes now so special that it's gonna happen now or even in the future? I've waited but you've only moved further. And for 2 years i've been pining for someone who's already left right from the beginning and has no intention of returning.. Yet i waited.

But it's alright... Cuz the next door that opens, is gonna be awesome.

I will miss you and it's not gonna stop but i guess that's the only way. Cuz right now I just wanna be with someone who does what he says. Someone who is always there.

It's about time for me to stop being the one who keeps waiting for someone to turn back. I've done what i could, and have waited for you but i guess i'm not the one you want to be with anymore and so... i get it. Now it's time for me to find someone who will wait for me and whom i can run to instead.

I thought i'd get through to you if i waited long enough, and 2 years isn't short. But in the end...

xoxo, W

Kylee ♥

I kept thinking that today is Tuesday until Manda screamed at me in MSN in caps. Hahahaha, i have no idea which world i was living in today.

Anyway! Went down to Grandma's house yesterday to see the little monster. I never really realized how much i missed her until i saw her yesterday :(

She's so quiet now and she doesn't remember us very well anymore... :'( But she kept staring at us, especially my mum, like as though she remembers that my mum was the one who looked after her for the past 1 year. It just felt like that... And it's so sad to see her so quiet and looking at us like we're strangers when she saw us :(

Fuck this shit, her parents don't deserve her love. They didn't even do their part as her parents okay! My parents were the one who showered her with so much love and time. Ughhh. My mum especially...

Kylee doesn't remember all the things we taught her at our house.. All the "byebye" and the hand-kisses... Gone :(

I miss her so much..

xoxo, W

Kibum's "Till We Meet Again" Fanmeet

I had 2 days worth of kibum-filled events and i'm over the moon yet at the same time in the pit of depression. Why? Cuz i'm totally thrilled and glad to have met him yet i miss him so much now and i still can't believe he's out of ukiss. Plus.. what he said at the fanmeet yesterday was really sad :( Trust me, dragonfly would have flooded if the fanmeet lasted longer.

So on Friday night we went down to the airport to fetch him and thankgod for Jamie, she told us to wait at Belt 37 instead of squeezing at the barricades which were at Belt 34. And it totally worked!

Only 12 of us were waiting at belt 37 and when he came out he saw us :')

And then there were only 6 of us who ran, while he walked, from belt 37 to 34! Awesome view of him plus his awesome fanservices :)

AND I REALLY HAD A VERY AWESOME CLOSE UP VIDEO OF HIM WALKING OUT RIGHT INFRONT OF ME BUT MY CAMERA DID NOT RECORD IT! -.- I hated my camera for the whole night.

Then yesterday, with only 3 hours of sleep, we went down to IMM for the fanmeet and managed to get first row places ^^V

Passed him these gifts. And i included Xander's card inside as well cuz i really think he might actually pass it to Xander for us :) Cuz they're bros like that!

Somehow i think my Xander card looks nicer than Kibum's :( I'm so sorry Bum but it just happened.

Anddd the epic fansigning moment. I went on stage and passed him my gifts and when he saw the gifts he was like "ohhh wowwwww!" Hahahaha!

And i guess because i was too overwhelmed with happiness and mesmerized by him that i blabbered my usual sentence. And instead of sounding like "기범! 항상건강하세요" it totally went like "기범!.....하세요" And so the poor boy was like... ???

Kibum -signing halfway and suddenly looks up-: "네?"

Me -almost shouting it to him cuz the crowd was deafening- : "하하하! 항상건강하세요!"

Kibum: "오! 아 Yes Yes, 건강하세요? 네 네. Thankyou. You too you too!"

So adorable :') I totally stood there and stared at him while he was talking to me. And all i could hear was him and it's like.. suddenly there's no crowd behind me and everything was quiet. HAHAHA.

His sigggyyy! :)

Rushed over to St.James' Dragonfly the minute i got off stage because we had to queue (yes, queue again) to get into the next event. And got front row places again! :) This time the stage was really small so it was DAMN near i tell you! It's like zoom-in times 10. Super near!

But then again my camera sucked so the pictures are like... really pathetic. But even with my lok-kok camera, the pictures still look kinda nice. So just imagine how near we were.

Shevon and Amanda were super lucky so they managed to go on stage to play games with him and he gave them each a hug! :/

Shevon's sister managed to get a picture that he drew! They're damn lucky right! And because of them, kibum stood right above me and his face was like WHOAAAAAAAA. Mega clear.

When kibum watched the videos that the fans made for him, he cried. And he started being really touched and all...

Kibum: "Thank you very much.. I'm so surprised. I was actually afraid.. that.. you know... But thankyou for still supporting me and i will be back soon!"

He was crying so badly that his voice was broken and he couldn't complete his sentences. The whole crowd was crying together with him and chanting "don't cry" in korean. Damn touching hor? :( All of us couldn't stop crying when we saw Xander's picture in the video.. Sighhhhh.

Then when dragonfly ended, everyone FLEW out of the room and hopped on to ANY cab and headed down to Mediacorp for the shengshiong show. And when that ended, we jumped into more cabs to rush down to the airport but he left via CIP :(

MAJORLY DEPRESSED.

Cuz i didn't get to say goodbye :( And didn't see him leave :( Talking about it just makes me want to cry even more.

Okay anyway, i finally collected my new BNK album with a photocard! And i got Kiseop's card! :) -jumps around and throws confetti-

But yesterday was worth it. All the running, the cab hunting, the failed cab bookings, the heat, the rain, the queue and the 3 hours of sleep, was totally worth it.

I miss him already.

More pictures are up on FB here!

Will upload the videos another time :(

xoxo, W

Till we meet again

This is gonna be a fangirl post, so ignore it if you're not up for it :)

Just yesterday, my dad told me that his friend couldn't get the SSS tickets because it's all been distributed so my sis & i practically sulked the entire day...

And... Today he called me and said his friend managed to get 6 tickets! HAHA talk about miracles and change of luck! ^^v

So we counted all the friends that we wanted to bring along.. and then realized that UkissmeSG & Rocketboxx were having quizes to give away free tickets so we thought why not! And we sent in our answers to both fansites... and guess what!

We won a pair of tickets each! So now we have... 10 tickets in total! And it all happened in just 1 day! Oh, and i think 7 thousand over people now knows my full name. But i don't really care, hahah!

And tonight we impulsively decided to go for the fanmeet. I mean, this is gonna be the last time we'll see him... So might as well go right? -sniffs-

Aye.. Kibum = Ukiss. That's why.

xoxo, W

Non-stop

I started my Friday by dragging 5 photobooks all the way to the west and then to Town. I think i should totally stop this personal service thing before i end up killing myself. But y'know.. I just think it's quite unfair to the people that i'm staying at Pasir Ris (1 end of the country) and expect them to come all the way down if they're staying in the West. And so i kinda offered to bring it down to the West.. :/

And now i regret it. Cuz my fingers felt like they were gonna detach :(

Met Geraldine and Manda @ ION and i was worried they'll be awkward with each other but I WAS SO WRONG! They macham best friends forever -.-

Cuz they meet each other at all of my birthday parties when i was younger hahaha! And my very lame cousin decided to gang up with Manda to play hide and seek with me IN ION. How cool is that? -.-

Oh! I finally did my nails :) I kept telling myself i need to paint my nails but i never found the time nor the patience to do it on my own this week. So i went to do cheapo manicure, which didn't turn out too bad.

Glittery Pink base with Black Shatters :) Really love the colour combination. But i think my shatters are a little too big cuz the girl was like in a hurry to finish :( Ohwell next time it's gonna be white and silver shatters!

Not too bad luh..

Aye... Tmrw's another super long day and i really hope i survive work tmrw. It's a Saturday.....!! (dread it so much) and i only have 1 episode of Greys to watch :( I'm gonna fall into depression tmrw i swear.

PLUS! I'm meeting 3 people to pass them their very-heavy photobooks :/ See, i shoot myself in the foot every day. Hahaha. But i really really wanna clear the books asap so that it doesn't mess the house.

And my dearest Xueqing is gonna accompany me for awhile tmrw :)

I swear my eyes are half open right now but i'm waiting for my 7 boys to appear on Mubank now -.- Please hurryyyyyy.

xoxo, W

Beezee Beezzz

I've had 2 days of rest at home and i basically nua-ed my 2 days away. I wish every week was like this. Sigh.. School sucks.

For the past few weeks, i've been panicking and worrying about the photobooks and on Monday, batch 1 finally arrived and freaked me out even more when i realized that batch 2 isn't here yet. Thankgod it came on Weds. I literally flew to the door to collect the package! You have no idea how relieved i was! -wipes sweat off forehead-

And when i ripped the box open, i was pretty shocked to see that it's such a huge book. Hahaha! Heavy okay! But it's really pretty i love it so much! ♥

I love how the font looks and feels!

And ofcourse, the freebies! I don't really use it but it adds on to my collection so why not?! Heh!

Idk if you can tell from the picture, but it's really kinda huge... But then again it's a photobook so.. The bigger the better right? Pictures are clearer and all!

And the pictures are reallllyyyy awesome! I kept going "whoaaa" and "waaaaahhh" when i was flipping through mine :/ Even my mum was like "wah so nice ah?!" Haha, yeah you get the idea.

I like how they added this section in. So adorable :)

Now that the good part's over, i have to stress about where to meet the people to pass them their books. And it's really making me cry. Most of them stays in the west and the books are NOT light, fyi. But i'll be nice and do it anyway :0

And did i mention that i'm dying of Greys withdrawal symptoms? :( The website better be okay by tmrw.

Nights! :)

xoxo, W

"You grew colder, cut me out, ignored my calls, became a stranger. Yet all i ever needed was you."

#storyofmylife

xoxo, W


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The Harold Song

"I miss your soft lips. I miss your white sheets.
I miss the scratch of your un-shaved face on my cheek.
And this is so hard cause I didn't see
that you were the love of my life and it kills me.
I see your face in strangers on the street.
I still say your name when I'm talking in my sleep.
And in the limelight, I play it off fine.
But I can't handle it when I turn off my night light.

They say that true love hurts, well this could almost kill me.
Young love murder, that is what this must be.
I would give it all to not be sleeping alone.
The life is fading from me while you watch my heart bleed.
Young love murder, that is what this must be.
I would give it all to not be sleeping alone.

It was my past life, a beautiful time"

Something so apt that i nearly teared when i heard it playing on my playlist this afternoon in the bus. Just like what it says "It was my past life". And so it shall be :) Need to pucker up and live life again.

But school's a drag. I'm spending more time in school than i did in the last few sems cuz of projects and more projects. The awesome part of having projects is that there's no Common Test this sem! -throws confetti- Except for FMGT because i'm retaking it -.- Other than that, life's good! I have nice friends in class and they're fun and all :)

Okay i am so deprived of sleep. So goodnight! :)

xoxo, W

Long weekend

Purposely woke up earlier this morning to finish the card and box for my Sis. And tadaaaaah~

I kept laughing to myself while i was making the card cuz Eli's face is everywhere.

And the box! (It's like an appetizer for her)

Look at how it completes her shelf now! Teehee!

So anyway, yesterday we went out for dinner to celebrate her birthday and came home to watch the G.E so i was too engrossed to blog.

Our favourite Ria's Ayam Penyet @ Lucky Plaza :) Yummmz.

Anw here's my dad learning how to smile for the camera.

I need a better camera :( All the pictures turn out so yellowish. Or maybe i should just learn how to get the right settings.

Got 2 sets of tutorials waiting for me to finish and a bunch of projects lining up. Ohgawd...

Thankgod class starts at 2 tmrw (Y)

Bye! -waves-

xoxo, W

F-F-F-Friday

My day started off awesome, up till now, whereby i really feel like punching someone in the face. Realll hard! >:/

Some annoying person hacked into my msn and now i can't retrieve it cuz msn isn't being of much help at all! And i'm freaking out because my project details are all in it -.- Oh gawd kill me now.

But anyway... I'll blog happy stuffs.

So.. I finally met Geraldine in Town after school to chill before she heads off to work :) Had Beef noodles for lunch @ Ion and it's really nice! Yummmmz~

I met Manda and we came home together :) And, i really love how my eyeliner looked today, so i started snapping some pictures. Okay maybe not some. Maybe it's a whole lot, but i'll just upload some to spare you the misery.

Oh! I managed to buy this 2 coloured nerd specs from a shop in Cine and it's really cheap! 2 for only $6! Andddd, these bunch of rubber bands for only 10cents each! Hahaha. Good deal right? Plus they're cute too!

Bought the Pink and the White specs cuz Kisp has the White one, haha! :)

See how cute the rubber band's colours are? Totally loving it.

Then i just completely lost my mind..

Okay sorry! And i'll end off with this picture cuz i'm dorky like that! Plus, i think that look is really hilarious. And my mum is in the background -.- HAHAHA.

Goooooodnight!

xoxo, W