Keeps me going

Whenever i feel like crap, like the whole world is going against me, i listen/watch videos of ukiss and i feel fine again. Especially kisp...

My babyboy can sing :') I love his voice, his dance, everything...

How is it that i can like/love someone who doesn't know my existence, so much? It's scaring me but yet i feel happier this way. Is it cuz i've not met a guy who can make me feel better than how Kisp can? Heck, kisp doesn't even need to do anything and i'll feel happy just looking at him. This is crazy.

He looks so idol-like in the top video right? Now watch the 2nd video and laugh with me. Hahahaha.

Videos like this... make me like him a whole lot more becuz he's such an adorable dork. He can look so horribly ugly yet instead of cringing, i'll be laughing till my stomach gets sore and i'll troll on him but liking him a whole lot more.

Kiseop, you're my favourite.

Dear future boyfriend, where are you? Are you kisp look-alike or act-alike? Hahaha.

xoxo, W

Teehee, AJ is my 2nd favourite :)

It's been awhile!

Heyyyyylooooo~ So, i haven't been updating this space for like.. 2 weeks? (since my last post was about going to school and all..) Teehee..

Anyway, school's quite alright (for now) because projects are not up yet, i've made a few new friends! Anddddddd... i've got a new eyecandy in my thursday class :) He's really cute! Hahaha /shy/

I've been running around outside alot lately.. i guess it's because i've got awesome company and even though i'm sleepy and zombie-fied everyday, i look forward to meeting the girls because they make me happy <3

And today class was from 9-10.30 (IKR so annoying because i take longer than that to get to school) so i went down to Bugis to look for Thea <3333 Then Jamie came down to look for us and i brought her to Actually Actually <-- it's a shop! to look for her shirts :)

OH! And y'know what?! It's halloween and bugis street has "Scream" and other ghosts walking around trying to scare everyone. FUCK MY LIFE! I was so bloody scared that i couldn't even shop in peace :( And my eyes were WIDE OPEN trying to keep a lookout because i swear... I AM FREAKED OUT! I've never felt so scared while shopping before. "Scream" is the worst. I hated that thing so frikkin much but i kept seeing it :(

But... it somehow knew that i was scared of it and so she came and stood BEHIND me hoping that i would turn and then she could scare me. But no, i didn't. I kept chanting to myself "don't turn don't turn don't turnnn" & a kind shopkeeper, who knew that i was scared, chased the "scream" away for me. I WAS DAMN THANKFUL FOR HER!

I HATE HALLOWEEN. Fullstop.

That aside... i tried instagram for the first time today.. haha! (yeah, call me slow but idc!) So here's me... today. Like Me2Day. hahaha (okay not funny, nevermind, you non-kpop readers)

Nerd Ho.

I'd kinda like this picture if it didn't turn out so reddish :( But i still like it.

Aye.. full shift tmrw and i'm sleeeeeeepy so goodnight ehvahreebadi~ :)

xoxo, W

Nerd specs + eyebags + and more cabbing.. = SCHOOL

School's gonna start on Monday (inserts all the sad faces i can find)... But on the brighter side...

LAST SEMESTER OF MY POLY LIFE!

\(^_^)/

-throws all the confetti in the world-

Initially i was dreading school because y'know.. new semester = new classmates = loner_92_forlife. But guess what! I went to check my class list and i found quite a few familiar names! I have friends i know in all of my classes except for 1 :/ So i'm just gonna be lonelygal_92 for that 1 module BUT IT'S FINE BECUZ I'M USED TO IT. I'll eventually make some new friends anyway, hahaha!

Okaaaaay. I'm majorly excited for BMM because my all-time favourite tutor is gonna be taking my class :) MADDDDD HAPPY! I'm gonna try to ace that module.

So, school stuff aside.... Work has been..... Tiring.

Last day of holidays tmrw, and i'm gonna meet Thea & Phyllis :) EGGCITED!

Okay i wanna blog more but my batt is dying so this is my cue to stop. Goodnight :)

xoxo, W

From the bottom of my heart

When she said "I love you" right there and then, and he replied "Me too". That could've easily mark the start of an end.

It's not easy to say "I love you" to someone face-to-face. But when you do, it sounds sincere and it most definately is sincere. It's a hell lot easier to just say "love you" or "ily" or "me too" but it's really not the same.

Idk why i'm saying this at such a weird timing but it just came to mind, haha.

Well i guess i should've seen it coming. From that very moment.

Then again, despite that, i did what i could and i gave what i could give. That year was my 1st year throwing a birthday party for someone. And prolly my last.

Although he didn't seem like he was really touched/happy. I was happy. For being able to at least do something for him.

AHHHH WELL~ that's the past. Whatever i say now won't change anything. Sadly.. But true, haha. And it's called a "past" for a reason right! Memories will always be memories and it's best kept that way.

Okay i'm sorry, i'm not gonna keep talking about the past anymore. I was just thinking about things & this came to mind. Sorry if i made you bored :'(

Goooodnight!

xoxo, W

Memories

It's almost 4am and i was just reading the archives on Ling's blog and i found myself tearing. Not that i wanted to, but it just came. I miss those days when we were a clique, when we meet up frequently just to hang out, talk like there's no tmrw. But amongst all these, i miss my bestfriend most.

And now, 2 years from everything. Where are we now? We're living our own lives, with new people in it. Whatever happened to our "future plans".. I don't know.

Idk how things ended up this way but i know i was a mess 2 years ago. A terrible mess that i never thought i would actually get over.

Then again, we've all grown. Or at least i hope i have. And i wanna make things right again. The thing is, how?

I know it's my fault. I deliberately pulled away from the clique because i couldn't deal with the breakup and because i needed to get over him so badly. It was just that.. it hurts everytime i meet the clique. Because they reminded me of him. And i couldn't handle it. Cuz i sucked (i know).

But now i'm fine (100% or not, it doesnt matter) and i miss my bestfriend.

Sorry for such a sudden emotional post. But i couldn't sleep so i ended up (idek why i did it) clicking on archives & so.. here i am.

#messedupforlife


xoxo, W

I'd still say it, over and over again.

Today marks Day 4 of consecutive driving and i'm quite tired of travelling down to ubi every morning :( But then again, today i finally bumped into Atiqah in the circuit cuz she did curbside stopping right infront of my car! :D And then later on at the bus stop, we bumped into Denn! Can't even remember the last time i saw him. Waaaaayyyyy back.

So anyway, i dragged myself home and got ready to head out again. This time to meet the girls cuz it's Jamie's off day today ^^

And because i felt like i need a new DP, i took a few selcas while waiting for jamie to leave her house.

And Jamie picked me up in a cab and we went down to meet Lesley :)

So we walked around Bugis, and bumped into Phyllis at Thea's shop ^^ I really miss them becuz it was so much fun chasing ukiss with them the previous time!

We went to ICC after that to collect my pay and had icecreammmmm in a pint! Took some whacked photos and laughed ourselves silly in the shop (luckily there's no customers).

I'm running out of things to say, so i'll just end off with a bigass selca :) Bye guys~

OH! you like my flower? HAHAHAH

Ohyes... I miss Kisp so much after watching this fancam. I really wanna fly there RIGHT NOW to see him. I wanna see him so fucking badly :(

I miss my favourite boy :( so much.

xoxo, W

At times like this

What i really need right now, is someone i can lean on when i'm exhausted. To just be there.

xoxo, W

So perfect (or not)

Timecheck: 2:14am. And i'm snuggled up in bed... Thinking. (yeah what's new).

Luck in love: 0%
Love life: absent.

So i still can't believe that he's attached because he's really someone i've been looking for. Oh god this is gonna sound soooo weird.. But y'know?! Okay so as i was saying.. He has everything i'm looking for in a guy! Okay, maybe except the smoking part. But hell, i can (kinda) live with that.

(I cannot describe him because if i did, then it'll be really obvious who he is. For some people.) So i'm gonna skip that.

The people i end up falling for... Are either attached or they don't feel the same. This sucks. A part of me really really wishes that he's not attached :( Sigh... And he's... Mixed. That's a bonus. Plus he's really sweet. OK I NEED TO STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM T_T

When will life turn around? I've been mending my heart for the past 2 years (yeah it's damn long, i can't believe it's been 2 years either) and it's time i opened it up to someone that i can trust him not to ruin it again.

I miss my past. But i can't keep clinging onto it if it doesn't want me. In all honesty.. A teeny weeny part of me still really wishes that it didn't end the way it did.

But this is life. And most of the time it catches you offguard.

xoxo, W
Goodnight.