From the bottom of my heart

When she said "I love you" right there and then, and he replied "Me too". That could've easily mark the start of an end.

It's not easy to say "I love you" to someone face-to-face. But when you do, it sounds sincere and it most definately is sincere. It's a hell lot easier to just say "love you" or "ily" or "me too" but it's really not the same.

Idk why i'm saying this at such a weird timing but it just came to mind, haha.

Well i guess i should've seen it coming. From that very moment.

Then again, despite that, i did what i could and i gave what i could give. That year was my 1st year throwing a birthday party for someone. And prolly my last.

Although he didn't seem like he was really touched/happy. I was happy. For being able to at least do something for him.

AHHHH WELL~ that's the past. Whatever i say now won't change anything. Sadly.. But true, haha. And it's called a "past" for a reason right! Memories will always be memories and it's best kept that way.

Okay i'm sorry, i'm not gonna keep talking about the past anymore. I was just thinking about things & this came to mind. Sorry if i made you bored :'(

Goooodnight!

xoxo, W

Memories

It's almost 4am and i was just reading the archives on Ling's blog and i found myself tearing. Not that i wanted to, but it just came. I miss those days when we were a clique, when we meet up frequently just to hang out, talk like there's no tmrw. But amongst all these, i miss my bestfriend most.

And now, 2 years from everything. Where are we now? We're living our own lives, with new people in it. Whatever happened to our "future plans".. I don't know.

Idk how things ended up this way but i know i was a mess 2 years ago. A terrible mess that i never thought i would actually get over.

Then again, we've all grown. Or at least i hope i have. And i wanna make things right again. The thing is, how?

I know it's my fault. I deliberately pulled away from the clique because i couldn't deal with the breakup and because i needed to get over him so badly. It was just that.. it hurts everytime i meet the clique. Because they reminded me of him. And i couldn't handle it. Cuz i sucked (i know).

But now i'm fine (100% or not, it doesnt matter) and i miss my bestfriend.

Sorry for such a sudden emotional post. But i couldn't sleep so i ended up (idek why i did it) clicking on archives & so.. here i am.

#messedupforlife


xoxo, W

I'd still say it, over and over again.

Today marks Day 4 of consecutive driving and i'm quite tired of travelling down to ubi every morning :( But then again, today i finally bumped into Atiqah in the circuit cuz she did curbside stopping right infront of my car! :D And then later on at the bus stop, we bumped into Denn! Can't even remember the last time i saw him. Waaaaayyyyy back.

So anyway, i dragged myself home and got ready to head out again. This time to meet the girls cuz it's Jamie's off day today ^^

And because i felt like i need a new DP, i took a few selcas while waiting for jamie to leave her house.

And Jamie picked me up in a cab and we went down to meet Lesley :)

So we walked around Bugis, and bumped into Phyllis at Thea's shop ^^ I really miss them becuz it was so much fun chasing ukiss with them the previous time!

We went to ICC after that to collect my pay and had icecreammmmm in a pint! Took some whacked photos and laughed ourselves silly in the shop (luckily there's no customers).

I'm running out of things to say, so i'll just end off with a bigass selca :) Bye guys~

OH! you like my flower? HAHAHAH

Ohyes... I miss Kisp so much after watching this fancam. I really wanna fly there RIGHT NOW to see him. I wanna see him so fucking badly :(

I miss my favourite boy :( so much.

xoxo, W

At times like this

What i really need right now, is someone i can lean on when i'm exhausted. To just be there.

xoxo, W

So perfect (or not)

Timecheck: 2:14am. And i'm snuggled up in bed... Thinking. (yeah what's new).

Luck in love: 0%
Love life: absent.

So i still can't believe that he's attached because he's really someone i've been looking for. Oh god this is gonna sound soooo weird.. But y'know?! Okay so as i was saying.. He has everything i'm looking for in a guy! Okay, maybe except the smoking part. But hell, i can (kinda) live with that.

(I cannot describe him because if i did, then it'll be really obvious who he is. For some people.) So i'm gonna skip that.

The people i end up falling for... Are either attached or they don't feel the same. This sucks. A part of me really really wishes that he's not attached :( Sigh... And he's... Mixed. That's a bonus. Plus he's really sweet. OK I NEED TO STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM T_T

When will life turn around? I've been mending my heart for the past 2 years (yeah it's damn long, i can't believe it's been 2 years either) and it's time i opened it up to someone that i can trust him not to ruin it again.

I miss my past. But i can't keep clinging onto it if it doesn't want me. In all honesty.. A teeny weeny part of me still really wishes that it didn't end the way it did.

But this is life. And most of the time it catches you offguard.

xoxo, W
Goodnight.