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So i realized this space is for me to empty all my emotions just so i can to bed feeling a little better. I guess it's still useful afterall, hahaa :)

Tmrw's my TP test & i'm freaking out. What if i make too many mistakes & i fail? What if i disappoint my parents? And honestly i'm too distracted by my own emotions that i can barely focus on anything. I hate that i'm weak.

Y'know... I've always thought that sincerity & patience could move someone. I believed that if you waited long enough, they would sense it. And that it could break the walls that they have built around their heart.

Maybe i can't. I'm not strong enough for this. I can't keep fighting if there's nothing left to fight for. And i can't keep chasing if someone doesn't care & doesn't want me to. It takes 2 hands to clap. So i guess i have to walk away... Not because i want to. But i really don't know what else i can do to save this :(

I'm upset. I'm hurt. But i can't show it cuz i'm not supposed to be hurt. I can't lose something i never had. And i know this wasn't even mine to begin with. It's just that, i miss my friend. And i can't believe all this is happening out of the blue.

And i'm mad at myself. For giving people reasons to leave. I guess it's me. I'm not good at keeping the people i care about close to me. Cuz i'm not the type of person who expresses my feelings easily. I need to know that you feel the same before i can give you my all. And i know that once i bare my heart out to you, i won't just walk away when things get rough. Cuz in order for me to let you in, it means that you're someone close to me, someone i trust that will not break my heart. And i really hope you won't. But ohwell..

I really hope this storm blows over soon. I want my rainbow.

Wokayz, that was long. I should really crash. Please let me pass tmrw! Pretty pretty please, with a cherry on top! :)

xoxo, W