Doors

Nowadays it feels like all the songs i come across are all somehow apt for me. I think it's a sign, hahaha. Here's one.

Knockin'

Right now it feels like i'm knocking on a door with no answer and i'm still waiting. It got me thinking. How long can i keep up with this? Even if i can hold on, how long do i have to hold? I know, i think a lot. More than i should, but i can't help it. If i don't have answers, i'll keep coming up with more questions in my head and i'll link from one question to another. It's crazily exhausting. 

But it's scary how a person can wake up one morning and just decide to drop everything behind. Are hearts really that fickle? Or are we just afraid? It's normal to think about what's gonna happen and all the 'what ifs' that comes together with all the thoughts. But think about it. All this time we're wasting trying to think of the "what ifs" and dwell too much into the future... We're just letting the present slip away. All the things that we were too busy thinking about, could have actually happened. All the 'what ifs' could have been our 'what we have now'. But no, we choose to think, and imagine, and think somemore. 

If only we could be fearless. If we had the courage to express our feelings, live in the moment, follow our hearts and make decisions. We could've turned our thoughts into reallity. We could've been happy. And even if it fails, well at least we were once happy. I know it's always easier said than done, but honestly, we only live once. And i believe that as long as you're following your heart, chances are, you'll always be happy. Cuz it's what you really want.

Heart over mind. 

I'm really trying... But everyone has limits and with time, if we find ourselves waiting for something that is not gonna come back.. eventually we'll leave. It's the only way out. We wouldn't wait for ships at the airport do we? Same logic applies. We can only keep waiting if we know what we're waiting for. 

I'm just afraid that one day i might just walk away. Cuz honestly right now i don't know what i'm waiting for, and as much as i want to keep waiting, i can't. Unless i know.  

xoxo, W 

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