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It kills me to know that my past is catching up with me. My life now is like a reflection of the past. And every night i pray that it's just another nightmare that will blow over soon. But is it? I don't even know ;( All i know is that it hurts a lot, and my heart is so torn up inside that it makes me wince in pain sometimes. It makes it hard to breathe.

But i know i have to keep going. And i will have to keep smiling cuz eventually it will stop hurting & i will be fine again.

Right now i don't wanna assume anything. I don't wanna think that anything has changed but it's a fact. Something did change. And it doesn't feel good at all... I wish there was something i could do to make everything better but i've tried. And i think i've failed.

Sigh. I miss you.

xoxo, W