Suffocation

So, i end up here again. Whenever i feel like i'm suffocating from all the emotions in me, and that there's no other way i can let them out, i find myself returning to this space. I guess it's good, in a way. At least there's somewhere i can rant.

I have so much in me. So much to say but i can't. With all the restrictions and whatnots.. It's killing me. It feels like all these thoughts, these emotions, are tearing me up on the inside.

And whenever i wanna let it all out to someone, i stop. Cause i don't wanna end up being annoying.

I am happy. No doubt i am. With all the amazing people in my life, there's nothing else i could ever ask for. But sometimes i have annoying thoughts that make me doubt what i have. Will i eventually lose everyone i love?

I need to know where i'm heading. If i'm gonna keep fighting, i need to know what i'm fighting for. I don't wanna fight a losing battle but not know anything until it's over.

I've spent sleepless nights trying to figure everything out, but i end up right back where i started. Bummer.

Help.

xoxo, W