Battle

Tearfest. I can't even begin. I can't put my feelings into words. So the only way for me to feel better is to cry. And that pretty much sums up my past few nights. 

I don't know what hurts more. Not knowing what to do and keep trying to find my way? Or to drop everything and keep walking forward? The more i wonder, the more questions i end up with. It's funny, i know. 

I came here with a lot of thoughts i wanted to pour out, but now that i'm here, i stop. Again. Whatever i'm feeling now, is so extremely excruciating that it makes it so hard to breathe. I just wanna curl up under the covers and sleep it away. I thought i was strong. But... maybe not. 

I need a hug :( 

But then again, i know i'll wake up tmrw morning feeling a little stronger than i am now, and i'll wear that same smile on my face again. It's amazing what a smile can do. It covers a world of pain and no one will ever guess. So yes, i'll keep smiling :) 

Cuz what will be, will be. 

xoxo, W