Graduation

I've finally graduated from NP. The day i've been looking forward to since the first day of school. I know, you're probably wondering why 1st day of school... but yup. I only really loved my friends :)

So today saw me in Graduation robe finally receiving my Diploma. It felt nice. Like i know that i've completed another stage of my life and it's time to move on to the next phase in life. And i'm scared... But i'll deal with it like how i've done so for the past few phases of my life. Hah.

In all honesty, when i first started off as a freshman in Poly, i thought i'd have someone who would be there with me throughout this 3 years and watch me graduate. Other than my parents, of course. But i was wrong. It feels like i'm always wrong, and i'm starting to wonder if i'll ever be right. So anyway, back to my point, i guess i felt how i felt because i saw how sweet it was when girlfriends come and support their boyfriends or vice versa. I think it's really nice, no? And because it's a happy occasion, so you'd want your someone special to be by your side. Right? But it's okay, Diploma i'm #foreveralone but there's always a Degree! Hahahahaha. Just kidding. Love will come when the time is right laaaa. Just wait for it :) It'll be worth it. (puppy eyes)

It's the 22nd now, which means exactly 1 more week before i leave. For the millionth time that i'm gonna say this... i'm filled with mixed feelings. And i don't think these feelings will ever go away until i set foot in Korea. I guess. I wonder if bearing my heart out would work, but i'm terrified. Argghhhhh my mind's a complete mess. My heart and my mind are totally out of sync. I feel like a complete wreck. Emotional wreck. I keep thinking and wondering, and i try to figure it out but i always end up with more questions in my head. Will the answers ever come to me? Are they gonna be the answers that i'm looking for? Or is it better not knowing? You see... I end up with more questions, don't i. Man, this sucks.

But whatever it is, once again... I'll follow my heart. Even if it means falling into a bottomless pit, then so be it. I'll fall. Willingly. I just hope that if i hit rock bottom, please let it hurt less. Cuz my heart barely mended itself.

xoxo, W
You make me smile.
For no reason at all.
It's scary.