Breathe

This suffocating feeling got extremely intense as of late. Whatever is going on in my heart seriously needs to calm down. But then again, we all know that such things are unfathomable and it brings you on rollercoaster rides. Enjoy it while it lasts, i guess? ;) It doesn't come around very often! Hahaha. 

By the time this post gets published, it's gonna be 16th May. Which means another 13 days before i leave for Korea for 22 days. Honestly... I'm overwhelmed with emotions and i don't know what's going on with me. It feels like i've lost myself, and that i can't keep up with time. And now Ukiss is gonna be in KL on 26th May and my sis wants to go so we're gonna leave on the 25th, up until the 27th. But i don't know if i wanna go. I'm giving up a chance to see Ukiss. I must be crazy. In the past i would've pounced on every chance and died of excitement if i'm gonna see them but now i'm ditching it. 

Truth is, i've found what makes me happy. And it's not just Ukiss anymore. I guess i'm in a phase where i'm stepping out of fandom and moving back to reality. I have so much i would love to just rant here but i can't. And that's when all this suffocating starts all over again. Bummer. 

More often than not, i feel like i'm so undeserving of this. 

Whatever it is, or whatever it may be, i'm gonna keep following my heart. Unless if for some drastic reasons that i have to let it die, then it's a different story altogether. But for now, heart over mind. 

xoxo, W