Wed-Friday

My Wednesdays are like Fridays now, because there's no school on the next day. Teehee :)

Sooooo.. Today, amazingly, i was really early for class and since the toilet was closed cuz they're washing it (i usually hang out in the toilet when i'm early for class -.-) so i had no choice but to go to class! And Ms Tan was there, so we talked..

Her: "Do you all have a class before this?"

Me: "Noo..? I don't think so? I think it's a lecture before this."

Her: "You... Think??" -puzzled look-

Me: "Hahaha ohyah, i don't go for lectures.." -guilty look-

Her: "Haha! Why not!"

Me: "Cuz it's mostly self-reading... and it's super tiring to come for lectures so early :/"

Her: "Oh.. Wow, and this is the first time i've actually heard you speak so much~"

Me: "Ohyah ah! Last sem i'm really quite right? I know.."

Her: "Yaaaaa! I barely heard a sentence from you! Why ah?"

Me: "Oh. Cuz i wasn't that close with the class last sem, and all...." -giving her the You-Know.. face-

Her: "Oh i see. Speak more ok! You're quite articulate you know! I like the way you speak."

So i made a promise that i'll speak more in class -.- I feel quite bad for not participating in her class last sem. She's really nice and i really like her, just that last semester was really crazy for me and a lot of things happened... So ya, i pulled away.

But i'm back on track now i guess? Made new friends.. Got a new class.. Classmates are funny and all... I guess i'm fine now :) I'm starting to like my class!

Talking about this made me remember that i'm not someone who can keep friends well. I've lost a lot of friends and also met a lot of new friends in a year.

Keeping people isn't my thing. And i feel like even though i try to keep the friendship, or make an effort to actually meet up, most of them don't reciprocate. And eventually i'll pull away.

I mean, what's the point really? Being the only one who tries and getting ditched most of the time? If it was you, would you still continue doing it? Doubt it..

Ah well! Being moody isn't gonna help!

-inserts a thousand smiley faces-

Looking forward to tmrw! Lunch with Manda as usual (it's like an every thursday thingy..) hahaha.

Come to think of it, Manda's the ONLY friend i've kept for over 10 years. Almost 13 years..

And i really love her so much even though we're not the cheesy kind of friends who says that all the time to each other :') We don't even say we're Best Friends. Are we? See, i don't know. But all i know is that she's the only one who knows practically everything about me and what i've done throughout my life so far.

She has seen all the ugly in me. Without make up, me in my PJs.. You get what i mean.

And i can really tell her anything. Like really anything kind of anything.

:')

Ok, too emotional. Haha!

Just 1 friend.. for so long.. -touched-

Awesome.

xoxo, W