I wanted to post this last night but my phone's blogger didn't allow me to... So i'm gonna do it now :)

Goodnight!

xoxo, W

Merry Xmas~

Merry xmas everyone ^_^v 다들 메리 크리스마스~~ ^ㅡ^

I'm spending xmas alone again this year. And it feels extra empty cuz some of my girls are in korea and we're not celebrating T_T

That said.. I'm reading this fanfic and it's really tugging on my heartstrings. Sometimes all of a sudden i'll miss everything i had in the past. But reality sets in quick, and i snap out of my daze.

So this year.. I spent xmas working, and we even worked OT for about half an hour cuz there was a sudden crowd :) And the customers were all nice and in a xmas mood so it was pretty awesome!

Dear santa, all i want for xmas this year is true love that really lasts :) Oh & for kisp to receive my gift and like it.

Man... Who am i tryna kid? :/

Anw! Back to reading my fanfic! Goodnight y'all~ Merry xmas once again!! ^^

오늘밤에 좀 슬픈데... 이느낌이 안좋아해. 사랑... 마음... 아팠어. 그사람은 아마 잊었다... 그럼... 굿나잇.

xoxo, W

Down.

At times like this when i'm all down and broken... I wish that there'll be a shoulder for me to lean on. And i'm not just talking about my girls.

I don't like feeling down and sad and sorry for myself. I hate it. I used to be so strong but someone broke this old me and now i don't know if i can mend me. But i really hope i can. This is killing me but i've stopped showing. I just act like i'm fine because i thought that if i act like i'm fine, i will be fine. That's not entirely true but... i guess it works. Until life decides to throw shit at you again and you feel all crappy inside out. Only then did i realize... I'm not as strong as i thought i was afterall.

I need you.

I don't even know if this is a sign of missing someone or that my heart wants to find someone new. I really don't. It's been awhile since i last thought of affairs of the heart cuz i've been evading it for quite some time now. But i guess i ran out of excuses not to face it. How now brown cow..? I don't wanna be hurt and broken all over again. I'm honestly.... terrified.

It sucks how i've turned into this person who's so pessimistic about love. But no, i don't blame him either. I guess this is where i'm supposed to end up.

Well i just hope that life perks up soon. Not that it isn't good now, but i just want it to keep getting better :) Oh and that includes Kiseop! Teehee~

Goodnight y'all ^^ I shall be blue no more.

xoxo, W

My everything

I've been super busy recently with work & projects... and my favourite boys.

Spent the whole of last night trying to rush out an advertisement for MARCOM and i had to use photoshop. I've NEVER used it before in my entire life and yesterday i had to do it. And so i did... i slept at close to 3am last night and got up at 6.30am this morning. I almost died. Idk how i woke up but it took me A HELL LOT of willpower and determination to drag my dead self out of bed. I was close to skipping class but then i thought "i've already skipped once, if i skip now, i can't skip again if ukiss has events that fall on a friday" And so i went to school... See how much ukiss can influence me? :)

And today saw me camping infront of the laptop again in school trying to do final touches to the ad cuz my tutor is damn bloody fussy about it. I mean seriously?! We're business students, we didn't sign up for design courses so why the hell are we doing all these shizzz? :(

But anw... They keep me going! ♡♡♡ And i love their latest song, Tick Tack a hell lot! Can't wait to learn the dance :)

They're my source of determination, they're the reason why i'm spending so much money, they're my motivation, and they make me laugh and cry like an idiot. They're my everything. ♡

This group means alot to me... so much so that it scares me how much i love them. I've never cried so badly (like it's the end of the world) over a group before. And it's funny how they can really make me do things i never thought i'd do. In a good way laa..

And unknowingly, i find myself in a much happier place :)

Alexander Lee Eusebio, Shin Soohyun, Kim Kibum, AJ Kim Jaeseop, Lee Kiseop, Yeo Hoon Min, Kevin Woo Seunghyun, Eli Kim Kyungjae, Shin Dongho. My OT9 ♡

xoxo, W

Life

I haven't been the best student so far, but i sure am being a hardworking fangirl. I spent 4 full days doing kisp's present and i spent a bomb on it. I'm not done with it yet so no pictures till i'm done.

Life... i don't really have much to say about it except... ahwell.

But i finally feel like my life is good now. So what if i'm a fangirl? So what if i'm spending money on korean artistes that don't know me? (yet) Because i'm very determined to make him remember me. It's like... my target. So anyway as i was saying, i don't get why is it such a "shameful" thing to be a fangirl. I mean seriously? Don't you idolize someone? No? Well if you say no, then i think it's sad. And if you do idolize someone, i won't be telling you "oh.. your idol sucks.. he's plastic, he's a guy but he uses makeup hahaha he's such a gay" No i won't. Cuz that's just downright rude. And to those who hates kpop and are insulting them, go look in the mirror thankyouverymuch. See if you're even 1/10 of them. If yes, then you're prolly entitled to say that. But if you're not, then my point exactly.

That aside! (yes i was so pissed last night when i saw people insulting and humiliating the MAMA2011 on twitter and acting as though they're so high and mighty because they don't like kpop. Yeah okay, suck it up.)

So yes.. I just read one of my friend's blog and she's going through a bad breakup. Then it suddenly hit me "oh wow i was exactly like that too, 2 years ago" And i smiled. Because i don't feel that raw pain anymore. Because my i'm happy with my life and the people in it :) I'm me again. After 2 years i've finally crawled out of that horrible hole of depression. And i don't see a point in being hung up over someone who doesn't reciprocate. I FINALLY SEE THAT NOW. Took me a long time though, but i realized in the end :) And i'm thankful.

Meeting my favourite girls tmrw, and i've got my IS class (hehehehehe) so yesss i'm looking forward to it! Eyecandy.

P.S: Kiseop means a lot to me. Cuz i've never done something like this for ANYONE before. And i've never spent this much on just 1 person before. The amount of time, effort, and money i'm putting into this present... ohgod kisp please just read or look at it. I know it's not a grand or fanciful thing but it's my heart and soul. And sweat. HAHAHA no laaa so gross i'm just kidding. Oh, and i trolled on you and scolded you a lot while i was doing it too though, so maybe you can feel it when you read it. Heeee~

xoxo, W

I wish you could speak English as well as i can speak Korean. So that we can be equal.