Down.

At times like this when i'm all down and broken... I wish that there'll be a shoulder for me to lean on. And i'm not just talking about my girls.

I don't like feeling down and sad and sorry for myself. I hate it. I used to be so strong but someone broke this old me and now i don't know if i can mend me. But i really hope i can. This is killing me but i've stopped showing. I just act like i'm fine because i thought that if i act like i'm fine, i will be fine. That's not entirely true but... i guess it works. Until life decides to throw shit at you again and you feel all crappy inside out. Only then did i realize... I'm not as strong as i thought i was afterall.

I need you.

I don't even know if this is a sign of missing someone or that my heart wants to find someone new. I really don't. It's been awhile since i last thought of affairs of the heart cuz i've been evading it for quite some time now. But i guess i ran out of excuses not to face it. How now brown cow..? I don't wanna be hurt and broken all over again. I'm honestly.... terrified.

It sucks how i've turned into this person who's so pessimistic about love. But no, i don't blame him either. I guess this is where i'm supposed to end up.

Well i just hope that life perks up soon. Not that it isn't good now, but i just want it to keep getting better :) Oh and that includes Kiseop! Teehee~

Goodnight y'all ^^ I shall be blue no more.

xoxo, W