I miss you everyday

Each time my action reminds me of you, i find myself staring blankly into space. Idek if i was reliving those days or was i just... Surprised?

And every night i feel weak. So weak that i pick up the phone with lots to say to you but my finger hits cancel by the time i'm done typing. Cuz it wasn't right to do that. And i can't keep being weak. I stop myself.

I'm doing everything i was told to do in order to feel better. But why does my heart still hurt so much with every breath i take, and with every thought of you?

So what do i do now? Fall? Go back to being weak? Keep holding on? What...?

xoxo,W



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Ohwell.

너 아라? 내가 정말 사랑해요 하지만 너는 몰라. 절대몰라

왜 이러께? 내 마음이 너무 아파요

아~ 찐자... 나 오늘 일찍 자요.

굿나잇~ ㅠㅠ

xoxo,W
I dont even know where to start


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Secret Garden

I've been watching SG these few weeks and it's making me laugh and cry like an idiot. For awhile it felt like love is the easiest thing on earth and the next, it's like something i can never overcome.

I cried like an idiot at parts cuz it related to me, somehow.. And it hurts.

I don't like it when i think of the past. When i think of how everything went from perfect to pieces. When i think of how much it hurts there and then. When i think of how hard and long it took me to get past everything. When i think of how i'm only barely moving on.

I don't like any of it.

And try as hard as i may to forget everything, i honestly can't.

Because this is the scar he left.

One that i doubt will ever fade.

xoxo,W

imy

Grenade

I've been listening to Grenade these days and the lyrics are really pricking me. And the past will eventually come back to me. Whut -.-

"I'll do anything for you.. But you won't do the same."

These 2 lines hurt the most.

xoxo,W


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SS3 withdrawal symptoms

I'm resisting every urge to blog about SS3 but i guess i can't. I'm literally screaming inside right now :/

SS3 was dope! And i got to see Siwon upclose (like less than 1m away) and I REALLY THOUGHT I WOULD DIE IN THE STADIUM!

I loved the spot that i was standing at cuz there was this small platform that they can actually jump onto and they'll be like 1m away from us (: *screams like there's no tmrw*

So... Siwon, Hyuk, Shindong, Chul, Kyu actually jumped onto that platform and gave really awesome fanservice!

First person who went to the platform was Hyuk! He stood there like a model and just froze. Then he gave that smirk (cuz we couldn't touch him despite him being like 1m away from us) and he went back on stage and got crazy.

Then Siwon came to the platform and he did the "okay" sign to us. /swoons.

My god, Siwon looked like a god i swear! He looks so flawless and don't even get me started on his abs!

Those abs are god-like! Like, photoshop 1000 times kind of abs.

It was so awesome and so defined! Omgaahhh i screamed till i almost died right there. I swear, AWESOME ABS! AWESOME!

When Siwon was singing his solo song, i cried -.- It felt as though i was dreaming because my favourite guy was standing there, in just a plain white shirt and jeans, and singing such a lovely ballad. People were screaming his name and cheering but i just stood there, stoned and tearing. /slaps

Then the worst part of the night was when SUJU had this performance for Kangin. It was so touching and extremely sad especially when they showed Kangin trying to reach out to touch the members but it just went through them ;'(

Entire stadium was chanting "Kim Young Woon" and the suju boys looked so sad.

Teuk was crying and Siwon looked like he was about to cry..

I cried. Like a complete fool. And all the ELFs around me were crying too.

So just imagine, a mosh pit full of fangirls initially screaming and cheering, now all suddenly standing still and crying while chanting Kim Young Woon. It's a sight i'll never forget.

AND THE BEST PART OF THE NIGHT?

I CAUGHT THE YELLOW ROSE THAT RYEOWOOK KISSED AND THREW! :):):):):):):):)

It was really coincidental though.. I was actually at the other side of the pit when my sis and i decided to just go crazy and run around the pit.

Then i spotted Wook running towards the same side as i was running to.

I saw something on the stage but couldn't really see what it was.. so i just continued running towards Wook.

Then he picked up the yellow rose, kissed it, and threw it to the mosh pit i was in.

So i just randomly stuck my hand out and jumped (trying my luck to see if i can get it)

AND IT LANDED IN MY HANDS! My last finger hooked onto it and i just grabbed it.

HEHEHEHEHEHEH!

And then i realised there was someone else's hand on the rose! Turned out that it was my sis. HAHAHAHAHA So both of us stood there and screamed to ourselves for like 5mins before we continued running around the pit (:

The yellow rose that made me so fucking happy (:

Teehee!

Wook's fanservice was damn awesome.

Beverly had this lighted bunny ears hairband and she was wearing it when she suddenly told me "eh waiyin help me throw on stage can? pls!"

so i took it and threw it on stage and it almost hit wook, but it landed on the floor in between wook and yesung! Both of them looked at the hairband but continued singing..

then all of a sudden Wook bent down and took it! And he raised it high in the air to show everyone, then he threw it back to Bev! HAHAHHA

Awesome or what! Bev nearly died when she caught the hairband.

Awwwwww :')

Okay i should stop fangirling away in my blog. So unglamorous -.-

Anw i had the worst food poisoning case yesterday morning :'(

Woke up at 5am and died in the toilet till about 6am, and i couldn't sleep cuz my stomach was hurting like a bitch and i kept having the urge to puke.

Couldn't even make it for the appointment at the polyclinic cuz i can't walk at all and Dad had to come back from work to send me to the doctor :')

Aye okay i wanna catch up on SG (:

xoxo,W