Gotta keep moving

Cuz they say everything happens for a reason. People come and go, and that's part and parcel of life. I suppose so. I just feel like i've been at this for so long and all of a sudden it feels like i'm right where i started. It's like i fought a huge battle to end up at nothing. But well at least i've seen things, and i've got to understand people better. Some true colours that i finally saw. It hurts, of course it does, but that's just how it's supposed to be. You gain some you lose some. For now it feels like i've lost someone close to me but it's prolly for the better.

And it's true when they say "If someone really loves you, they'll do anything to be with you. They won't be afraid to show you, to tell you, or to prove to you that they love you. And nothing will stand in the way."

I know i'm to blame too. Cuz i've been out of this whole "falling for someone" process ever since a bad breakup a few years ago, i kinda forgot how to love someone. I forgot how it felt like to have someone there for me and how it felt like to bear your heart out to someone. I couldn't risk giving someone my heart cuz i'm too afraid that it'll get all wounded and broken all over again, so i kept guarding my heart. I kept playing it cool cuz i wasn't sure if it was mutual, and i wasn't sure if it was true. Cuz everything was hidden and there were no heartfelt words. But i gave everything a long though, and i did, in the end. I let my guard down, thinking that hey maybe this could work. But look where i ended up? Struggling.

Torn between moving on and fighting on. Trust me, as much as i would love to fight, i think i can't. Cuz you can't fight for something that isn't there. And i guess it's time for me to take a step back and let things be. But whatever it is, as long as everyone's happy, why not. I'll find my right one soon. I'm sure he'll come along. Maybe not now, but he will :)

Until then, i hope everyone's feeling good. Or at least, not sad. Hahas.

xoxo, W