Awakening

Last paper today and i'm 90% sure when i say i'll fail today's paper. I'll leave the other 10% for a miracle.

Walked out of the exam room feeling worst than crap, with that heavy feeling in my heart knowing that i've probably shot myself in the foot for not studying hard enough for it. But what's done can't be undone and there's no point crying over it. Still, it felt horrible.

But that aside, i'm glad it's the holidays. I have so many things i wanna do and there's so many places i wanna go to. I'm praying extra extra hard that dad will give me the green light for the trip with the girls. *fingers crossed*

So anyway, i've been thinking and i guess i really need to stop. It's not gonna get me anywhere and i can't keep feeling this way because at the end of the day, i'm the one who ends up feeling hurt and horrible again.

But i don't want things to be one-sided anymore. And i don't wanna be the only one fighting this.

I don't know if i did the right thing but that was all i wanted.. or needed. To know that things are, at the very least, fine.

What can i do to start feeling better? What can i do to turn things around?

Or how about, what can i do to make you understand?

xoxo,W