meaningless words

Y'know, sometimes i wish there's a special runaway place allocated for each individual. Somewhere i can go to for solace, somewhere i can be alone and away from everything else that is happening. Like another dimension or something. Just somewhere far, somewhere away, somewhere no one knows me, where i can be whoever i want, whenever i want.

That place should exist. I need it so bad. Cuz every day's just another battle to stay here.

Today my tutor talked about a lot of relationship stuffs which went right through me. It's like i'm numb to affairs of the heart. Can't feel, can't relate, can't be bothered. It doesn't affect me like the way it did in the past when even the mention of his name makes my heart wrench. This is a whole new feeling to me, something so alien that it scares me.

One fine day i might just totally give up on love and i won't even be surprised.

xoxo,W