Getting by

Okay let's see.. Today went by with me feeling like a total bum, rolling around at home. But it's good cuz i don't have to worry about what to wear or how my hair is gonna look like. I love lazy days ;)

It wasn't just my icecream that was melting under this crazily hot sun. I would melt too, sooner or later. 

Walk with me would you? 

Cookies that Manda baked ;)

Oh! It's 9th May already and my lil princess turns 16. The best sister anyone can ask for. And i'm thankful for her ;) I look at her and i tell myself that i gotta keep doing the right things so that she can learn from me. And i hope that at the very least, i'm doing a fairly decent job now. Hahahaha.

Alrighty! Gotta work tmrw, time to crash soon! Goodnight y'all, xx.

xoxo, W

Ack, blogger changed it's layout and now it's weird.

Anyway! I'm gonna try and revive this page but i doubt it'll happen that easily cuz each time i'm here, i either rant or i pour my heart out. None of which is worth reading, hahaha.

So... This week my parents decided to throw me the hell card and i felt that same horrid feeling all over again. I thought life was just starting to perk up, that i could finally do whatever i wanted now that i'm done with school. But no, i was wrong. I'm still that kid in my parents' eyes and i'll always be. So no late nights, no havoc. Not that i'm a havoc person to begin with, but sometimes all i wanna do is hang out with people who mean the world to me and just live life. On top of all, i just wanna be happy. Seems like a tough feat now.

Apart from my parents and their unreasonable rules and rambles, i'm loving my life. It's a drastic change from 3 years ago, and my heart's in a better place, cuz what i'm feeling now, feels nice, and comfortable and... right. It feels right. I'm finally breaking the walls i've built around my heart. I'm letting him in. Yes i'm scared, terrified actually, but i'm gonna try. Cuz life will keep throwing shit at you but honestly, it's make or break. And i wanna make it. I've been broken, shredded into bits and pieces, ripped apart on the inside, but i still walked out fine in the end. I spent 2 years thinking that i'll never make it but thankgod i did. And it's true when they say time heals all wounds. There will be scars, but eventually we'll find that one special person who will make everything worth the while.

I don't know if this is mine, but i hope it is. I'll leave it to time.

xoxo, W

Hearts on fire

I'm unsure. I wonder what's gonna happen if i take another step.

I guess only time will tell :)

xoxo, W

I will come back to blogging soon.. I hope.

xoxo, W

I'm alive

My heart finally feels alive again after 2 years. Cuz i'm breaking the walls i've built in the past :) I'm ready to love again. I miss having someone by my side, through the ups and the downs. Someone i can be dorky with in our own world. I don't need flowers and expensive dinner-dates to be happy. I just need someone who will be there for me, even if it means eating bread and kaya for a month. I'm serious.

I used to think that i've found him, that we can go against all odds together. I thought he'd be there for me even if everyone turns their backs on me. But i was wrong. He left too. Not trying to sound crazy here but it really felt like my whole world just came crashing down on me and i had to pick up the pieces all by myself. Which i did..

THAT ASIDE... hahaha, i'm fine now. I know it took me a long time to be fine but i'm fine now. That's all that matters right?! :)

The right one will come along and make everything better. I'll wait for you, whoever you may be.

xoxo, W